yes, i dont sleep.

the blog is re-vamp. yes, again.. dont go -.-?? on me.. cant help it okayy~ its 4.55am approximately 4 hours to go before the ethics paper *ughh* had to de-stress. that bloody cup of coffee is to be blamed! *grunts* but why in the world did i had it in the first place?? *smacks head*

ok.. so i managed to gobble up 9 filled chapters of ethics in a day. to what extend i could vomit it out back later remains unknown. so if u happen to see me tomoro with my head hanging lose, you know what happened. ethics is just so.. erm.. ethical? hehe...

anyway, this is a completely meaningless blog i tell you, as i do not have anything to say. i'm mentally drained from studying the whole (i havent step out at all), my head feels heavier than my body and your body add up together (like real,), my mind tells me to sleep but my body cant or should i say cannot?, well.. erm.. wheree was i ?... *blackout*

so at the physical state i am now, i think i am drained. sucked out of all energy or the slightest sign of life.

so off to bed i go to salvage anythings thats left of me.

To all thats sitting for the ethics paper tomoro i wish me and you GOOD LUCK AND ALL THE BEST.

To the lead lecturer who did not give out any tips whatsoever- i dont like u. for now.. hehe

till then..

What if..

if u were an animal, what would you be?

hmm.. interesting question eh?
this question just pop-ed out of nowhere...

i guess if i were to be an animal (if i really really have to be one la-h)
i'd be a dog.

More specifically, a Shih Tzu.

Just coz its simply irresistably cute. PLus, you know what they say

about man's best friend? Yes, you got it right if "dog" appears tru your mind.

Well, i was thinking,

if i couldnt be a human, at least be something that will be
loved, fed, taken care of and close to human. ^^

I asked this question to SW too.. he say he will be a tapir.
And i was like -.-??

Why on earth tapir???
He say coz they are like very few in numbers and about to be extinct.

Hmm.. i dunno.. try and take a look at both pics below.
Would you rather be a cute shih tzu dog or a black and white animal with a weird nose, but quite a cute ass?

poem sharing day!

The Truth About Drink Driving

I read this in the paper,
And it really made me think;
That a quarter of all road accidents
Can be blamed... directly... on drink.

Now statistics, they tell you, will never lie,
But be wary of how they're used;
You need your wits about you,
It's easy to get confused.

If a quarter of accidents are had by drunks,
Then sober people have all the rest;
That's 75% if I'm not mistaken,
... (My maths never were the best).

But I'm not entirely stupid,
And I plan to stay alive;
So I'm gonna start driving drunk,
I'm three times more likely to survive.

Copyright; Ian Mackay - May 1995

i thought it was cool so i came up with this..

This poem you see,
this one right above,
i googled it from the internet,
cuz i suddenly feel like becoming a poet
but as you can see ,
if you can see what i can see,
becoming a poet, i shall never be,
anyway anyhow, back to the story,
i am not encouraging drink drinking, so please don't sue me,
drinking and driving is never the best combo for you and me,
so before you do it
please think carefully
the poem above titled" the truth about driving" is not dependable you see,
cuz i got it from a site named for the lunatic and crazy!

midnight creepy crawlie.

its exactly 1.07 am and here i am.. blogging.

whenever exams are near ANYTHING is better, anything except studying.

watched this Japanese drama Jotei (smtg on night club hostess)
and i tot it was like superb.
altho on normal days.. i would have dismiss it because i dont normally watch Japanese.
but i exhausted all my tvb, prison break n heroes till i hv none left.


surf the net aimlessly (bsc i finish checking everything)
and it felt very comforting.

the plain sight of watching the sky or clouds or just sit down n not move seems
like an interesting to do.

Have you ever felt this way?

The thought of having to pick up that very heavy few pages of slide notes
or the intimidating looking textbook
is enough to make you sleepy just thinking of it.
let alone actually reading it.

This is creepy..

Not very healthy i would say. Not for a final year final sem student.

Arghh.. i gotta do something. Anything! To get me out of this lazy bimbo attitude of mine.

Lord i'm doing, all i can,
To be a better student~~~

Did i just sang that? *gulps*

mes.s.y

its been raining the whole day.. n yes the weather is jus purr-fect. =) i just wrote this rather messy, negativity surrounded, whinny complaning blog in the afternoon. But guess what? i dunno what in the world happened, it deleted itself! maybe its just signs telling me its not appropriate to be posted.

Anyways, its now evening, n i am happy. Sometimes i really wonder how emotional can one person be. That mood comes and go before u realize it was ever there in the first place.

So back to my story.. it was such a nice weather, hence my nap.. when suddenly the phone rang and i was abit grumpy as i hate to drag my sorry ass to take the call. Anyway, i was in for a surprise as it was Deloitte's HR Manager calling to infrom me that they are offering me the job. : ) I was surprise so i told them i needed some time to consider. The very nice HR lady asked is it okay if i reply within 24 hours as they will be off to their annual dinner tomorow afternoon. I of course replied yes, no problem. hehe..

For those who have been in contact with me these few weeks, im sure u guys had enough of my dilemmas. *thanks for always being there* I got another job offer from BDO Binder earlier on and i am very keen on taking it. There are alot of pros n cons to consider.. but imnot gonna write it here as.. im lazy. I think i have already made up my mind. But i requested to consider anyway cuz i tot it might be very impolote to reject it rightaway. Anyway, i will call BDO to confirm tomoro n Deloitte to decline their offer. I like Deloitte no doubt, plus its really near my house.. but everything just seems to point me towards BDO. If you wanna know why in detail, u can ask me anytime. I am just very happy that i got offered the job for both of the interviews i went to. Its been some pretty stressing weeks when i started hunting for jobs at the beginning as i was not getting any reply. However, later on.. everythin fall into place.. Hmm.. must tell myself to be more patient in the future.

PLus im abit worried that i have yet to start my finals preparation. i havent been studyin a wink since i got back. tsk..tsk.. theres just so many things to settle.. i need to settle my room in my condo payments of rentals bills, set a date to move out so de newbie can move in, decide if i wanna move back to my house in pj to stay or move in with my friends cum future colleagues so that we can keep each other company n safe safe ^^ (u noe la.. crime rate veli high.. dangerous to go back home alone, especially if u have to ot!), plan my trips (malacca, langkawi, class trip etc) plus mua's birthday is comingg *hint* *hint* hehe Luna Bar.. i smell you~~~ plus my very last minute shopping for formals cuz i oni have like 2 sets (very de kasihan..) n not to forget i have to finish everything asap cuz im starting work like 2nd of January??!!!@!
Lord.. save me...

So here i am.. stil blogging about it when i should be studyin instead. But even if i wanted to start now, i cant.. cuz its dinner time. =P

My life is just so so so messy now. But its messy for the better. So off to dinner i go.

Bubbyee.

3/12/07

i'm working towards you. Closer from where i've started. Chasing after you. I'm letting go all i have ever hold on to. Chasing after you. I'm running towards you, but i'm not quite sure where to go or where i'll end up to. But still, i'm chasing after you.

I'm standing here, solid as ever. Will not budge, will not give up on u, until you make me move. Please forgive me for all i'm lacking. I might be completely imcomplete, but just give me a few years. I'll claim you. For now, i'm still chasing after you.

Theres nothing else to lose. I just hope you noe, you are so hard to reach. I keep my eyes on you, never letting go. But ppl are pulling me sideways, shoving me with others when all i wanted was you. They think they know whats best for me. But only i can be the judge of it. So what say me? I say im willing to try and take the risk. I rather regret doing it than to regret never knowing how the ending will be just because i didnt give it a try.

I'm really just hanging by a moment. BUt i'm still closer from where i've started. I am still chasing after you.

Once i've set my mind on something. It takes alot to make me change. Same goes here. Gimme 3 years min. I will get u. Pass with the first attempt. This is what i wish for. No matter what others try to say, bout how i dont quite fit the mold, i will prove them wrong. Why ever give someone whos trying her best a hard time? Is it ever appropriate to break a young soul spirit just so u get the benefit?

I'm beginning to fear human. I fear their ruthlessness. I fear how superficial they can be. I fear how i could not differentiate when they r kind, cruel or cruel to be kind. I fear how unreal some might be. I fear how some could try and manipulate ur mind telling u stuff to make u doubt urself. I fear for them.

A simple quest to work towards what u wish for. How could it get so tangled and complicated?

And i feel so sorry that i feel sorry for myself. sorry because i did not haven enough faith to belive in myself. Sorry because i fell for it. I got affected by it. Sorry because i felt sorry for myself one moment when i should have been happy and feel blessed instead.

Opportunity like this dont happen very often. Once let go, there might never be a second try.

Just so i know, i am stil chasing after it. I havent let go.

Tonite, i dont want the world to see me, because i dont think that they'll understand. When everything is made to be broken, i just want you to know who i am. I cant stop the tears that aint falling. But please see the fire burning in me and the moment of truth that shines tru my eyes.

woke up this morning and found myself emo.

im thinking that once i get back to sg long.. time will pass by so fast, that b4 i cud even say cheese, BAM! its 19th. the last day of exam = last day of uni life. ever.

i noe ive been bloggin alot about how its last n etc.. but i just cant get it off my mind..

its beginning to hit me that everything i hold to heart so dearly, i will have to let go.

starting work so early so solely my decision and im beginning to question myself, might it be too early?

i will only have about 2 weeks shy for holidays. minus the days taken to pack n move out of my condo..

i dare not think more.

im just a lil sad. thats all.. its really coming to an end.