Randomly random..

Everything is about money nowadays.

You want an education, you need money. When you are enrolled and studying, you need money. When you completed it, you need money too.

I just got the convo letter yesterday, and i shocked my eyeballs out when i read that i need to pay rm498! although rm 200 is refundable.. but stil... >.<

I try not to think about it.. How am i going to survive.. payment for convo, booking payment for car (yes, yours truly is thinking of buying a car), family, flowers and teddies for convo (hehe) , omggggg... whoever tell me that after working i'll be financially independent enough to buy stuffs i like .. come here and let me strangle you! Working does not provide you with extra cash. No.

Feel so broke suddenly.. ><

Anyway, as i was saying, convo is near.. so letme tell you guys what is favourable to yours truly. hehe.. alot of nice looking flowers(preferably carnation, sunflower or roses), cute teddies, piggies also can.. gifts would be so nice.. eeh.. oops.. terperasan me.. later that day all i get is some miserable stalk of dried up leaves... so.. yes, i am expecting flowers and teddies .. hahaha... i know.. beh tahan me right..? i cant tahan myself either.. ^^

*blush*

I think im getting older by the minute. Visible wrinkle lines are beginning to show.. I worry too much. Soome stuffs are worth worrying, but some are just plain extras. Cant help it either way. Too personal to have it mentioned here. But my mind is messed. Hopefully it'll get sorted out soon enough. *Toes crossed*

I know its a random jumbled up post today cuz i'm basically just typing whatever that comes to mind. So, pardon me. I would love to continue blogging me but.. the time forbids me to. Its 9.46 already and i'm close to bed. Working 6am-2.30pm has its pros and cons. One thing is although you are working the same amount of hours like others, but going home earlier than them somehow makes you feel as if you are working shorter hours. haha.. psychology i tell you..

But it does have its cons.. Like when you wake up early in the morning and go to work at 5.45am, normal people are basically just waking up from their sweet sweet dreams and some might be happily dreaming away still! And imagine to have your normal cycle all set up once again because now your "lunch" break is at 9am? ehehe.. bt after work you will more time to do your own stuffs.. and when you come as early as i do, you can kiss the traffic jam goodbye! ehehe.. pros and cons la..

Whatever it is, life is full of twists and turns. Sometimes i feel so in control of it , but there are times too that i just lose it.

Regardless of anything, i'm those who keep this "i aint givin up without a fight" mentality in my very own tempurung/kepala otak aku. hehe

Thats all for tonight.. till then, goodnightO!

And rmb the flowers... :P

L.o.v.e is...

You know you're love strucked when..

Everything looks beautiful and crystal clear when you see it through his eyes and yours..

Even when it comes to eating.. your food starts to take or resemble the shape of anything like this..

Your heart might bleed eventually at some point, but it will always be cured by that person. Cleaned, sterilised, bandaged and seal with a kiss. Fast recovery is on the way, usually within a day. (or more.. hehe)

You feel like you can even reach for the stars and that all the stars in the sky shines only at you, for you...

And nevermind the fact that you both are so different in so many ways, but you always take the effort to accomodate one another..

i'm a cat rite, *rrribbbit* oops.. am i?

You also know your love strucked ,when that one person could have the power to turn your world upside down and inside out.. well... something like this picture of an indeed confused cat, thats having some sort of personality disorder.. well.. thats how powerful love is..

PLus, you also know you got it bad when even in the year of The Rat, you start seeing this...

=.=".. ya.. i know.. bad rite?

Regardless you love it, hate it, have it, lost it, never really knew what it is, or hurt by it...

Love is .. always there. It survived many years of evolution, and its basically the foundation to everything. At least to me it is..

One Orlando A. Batissa once said and i quoted, "The greatest weakness of most humans is their hesitancy to tell others how much they love them while they are still alive. " So.. I'm not gonna be most humans.. so..today this post is dedicated to you. For you.

Regardless that sometimes you are really like this..

But most times, you're an angel. So.. you're cool. We're cool. hehe..

So, may it grow and never stop growing for many years to come.

small heart become big big heart.. hehe...

Lovestrucked ,anyone? *grins*

This blog is still functioning... hehe

I havent been updating my blog for sometime now, and i must say i'm ashame. hehe...
Well, the reason being that alot of things have been going on with my life, and i just could not figure out where to start.. hehe..

well, for a start, one major big ass thing that happened in my life happened in late January. A call that would have eventually change my course of career and pretty much my life. The call was from IBM. Upon thinking, contemplating and putting myself tru dilemmas day and night and various other nerve wrecking decison making sessions, yours truly have move on from audit to IBM now. As much as i miss the people i work with previously, i am also very happy here in IBM.

To the team i worked with for the very short one month plus, me miss you guys! Nevermind that the chances of any of you ever reading this is like 0.01%, but.. i miss all of you form the bottom of my heart. You guys have took care of me well, always willing to teach me and you guys made me feel welcomed. On the night of the farewell dinner, i tried to put up a brave front, but deep down i practically much knew that this smight be one of our last dinner together. On my last day, Iris you were so naughty into saying "How come didnt cry wan..?" ... that almost activated my tear system cuz it was already fully accumulated and ready to roll anytime. Serene, one of the nicest girl i've ever met. I wish you get what you wish for and send me goodies from Australia in future. Iris and Serene, you both are like sisters to me. To Seok Wei, my second senior.. i cant help but feel like wanna hug you at times cuz you are so cute! hehe.. YOu always like to tease me, and i never mind it at all .. cuz i like it. but i wont be comin back to clear the review points! hehe.. To my dearest senior Wai Yee. You must have gotten heart attack the first day when you knew your junior is from marketing! hehe.. But, you taught me well. Everything(altho limited) I know about audit, i learned it from you. You were always giving me chances to learn and practice and make mistakes. I will keep in mind all the knowledge you had pass on to me. Ok.. now i do sound kind of emo-ish. Whihc is partly the reason why i did not blog for sometime because i KNOW it will get emo-ish. All i wanna say is, i appreciate you guys. I appreciate that you guys still call and wish me luck on my first day in IBM, asking if everything was alright and can i adjust to the new environment. I felt deeply touched.
I wish i could still be working with all of you, but life took a twist, and i'm now heading to the direction i feel would suit me best.
I wish you guys continued success in your career and may you be happy and healthy always.
Do not forget this blur girl you once met in BDO Binder. : )

Having move on to the new company, changes to where i live now were also inevitable. I am no longer stayin at the rented place in Queens, for i have move back home.. because its nearer and more convenient travelling from home. I 'll start driving to work soon.. so watch out people!! hehe..

So many changes in such a short time. To my roomie and housemates in Queens, i miss you guys. I could recall the night before our first day of work. We were asking each other opinion like hey is this tie ok? or what you think of this skirt? and is this bag ok? reminding each other eh you got bring all your documents ar? I miss that. The sound of my housemate waking us up in the morning is something that i have grown so familiar with that in the morning of my first day of work in IBM, i miss that sound. I miss us chatting at night when everyone had reached home. Chatting and asking each other how your day have been. All these memories, i keep dear to heart. I wish all of you the best of everything and all the strength for you to persevere and succeed in audit life. I will drop by and kacau you guys from time to time.. hehe

Okay.. back to something less emo-ish.. as you can see from the time, its 10 30am.. and i am blogging. well, actually i shouldn't be, but well, lets say i'm using my free time wisely hehe. We are still on training now, but towards the end. Today is the last traiing day. We are suppose to meet up with our mentor later on, so for the time being.. this is what i am doing.

Today is the last day i will be working the normal working time i.e 9-5 pm.. Starting from next week, i will start work at 6am and end at 2.30pm instead. Shopping or movies anyone? hehe..

Today marks my fourth day in IBM and i must say, i like it here very much. The training helps alot as they explain and walk us through IBM history, values, organization chart everthing. We were also briefed and trained on how to utilise our think pad, step by step guidance on how to use relative functions/system, how to operate various office equipments, and many more which is quite impossible to explain all here. It makes you feel well taken care of. Like you know who to call if u need help, which person to look for, whihc floor. They are quite detail and sensitive in terms of taking care and guidin theier new hire. Plus, lunch is so convenient cuz IBM is connected to 1U tru One HOtel so, thats not a prob. But the price of the lunch is.
Its barely a week yet, so im still getting to know the company. I dont know how much will my perception or feelings change towards here after a while, but all i can say for the time being is, i like what i see.. hehe..

Thats all for nw.. my blog is revived!

Have a good day y'all! and Happy Belated Valentine's Day! (mine was goooood, how was yours?)

just some ramblings.

I drank the biggest coconut ever tonight. >.<"

it was so big, its even bigger than my head! heck,its even bigger than kenny sia's. Teehehe...

Felt so full that i almost felt like vomitting. But ididnt , of cuz. And now.. im hungry. >.<' BUt everythings good, cuz.. im expecting some very delicious green curry coming my way... hehe

It feels so relaxing tonight that it suddenly occur to me that i have not made any resolutions for 2008! So here goes... My resolution for 2008 is ....to not make any resolutions!! Hah!

Never will i revert back to that young innocent girl attentively making all her resolutions, promising herself that she will fulfill every of it, but end up forgetting about it one week or so later. hehe. I dont want to succumb myself into futilely making all those resolutions that i know i will never keep. >.<"

So, lets just say that my resolution for 2008 = none.
I'll just do what i would normally do, but double the effort. =)

Talking bout 2008.. many things seem to be happening. How could we not remember the big bang scandal that surprised us early of the year, the kidnap of little Sharlinie (i hope they find her soon and that she's alright and not harmed and the bloody culprit behind this whole thing get caught and face his much deserved punishment) my heart goes to her family members. May they stay strong during this very trying time. And how could we ignore the front page story that seem to grace (or disgrace) our nation. How could it be that our once chief judge could indeed have the possibility of being corrupted? I just could not accept someone from that level could be involved. i find myself losing faith with my own country. ( i dont want to.) How could it be that small childrens could not go to playgrounds due to fear that they might get kidnap and to have cameras installed nearby? It is just so wrong in so many levels. Why is it that we no longer feel safe just taking a short walk to our neighbours' place without having to fear that we will not get rob by some snatch thieves or risk getting some parang welding fella shoving their parangs on our throats? Why is it that cars get stolen so easily? At the end of the day, the question is, How could we not feel safe in our own country?

Enough said. Or should i say i dont know what else to say.

Some things just never change.

My life after uni..

Time passes by very fast when you're in audit.

On one fine sunday night you find yourself utilizing every single minute to relax, just bsc you know tomoro comes another working week, ... then you find yourself waking up in early monday morning (practically dragging your feet)... and the next thing you know.. its already FRIDAY!!!

You will find yourself feeling kinda happy on a friday for no particular reason.. : )
I absolutely am looking forward for weekends, now that i have started working. Time seems very very precious now, and if by any chance i get any time to relax, i will literally jump at the opportunity!

Work is fine and i find myself learning new things every single day. I love the project that im currently charted to and life has been very busy. I love it when i'm occupied because when your working on to something, you wont realise the time. My senior and colleagues have been teaching me alot of stuffs and i really appreciate them doing so. Sometimes, i feel kinda bad because i dont want to bother them too much because they too have work to get done. So, i try to pick up stuffs on my own sometimes.

I have lost touch with accounts for almost 2-3 years .. so.. credit debit stuffs do seems confusing to me at times. But i am learning. I am trying. I am giving myself a chance to work this out, and hopefully the light at the end of the tunnel will come to light very very soon.

As i was saying, work is fine but... travelling to work is NOT.

The normal routine for me is to wake up at 6, wash wash brush brush eat eat and leave the house by 7.20am. After that comes the 12 minutes (depending on speed) walk to the star lrt, 15 minutes ride and another 10 minutes walk to the office. By the time i reach office, i am practically soaked wet. >.<" (not a pleasant sight)

Sigh.. was i too pampered last time? I used to go everywhere and anywhere by car last time.. but now.. i can safely say i am fully utilizing my both legs. No longer can rest. I see myself telling them both legs "C'mon, work it babies!"... But at least the positive side is i might shed some kg-s.. no? Teehehe..

I work till 8pm and by the time i reach home, it is 9 plus. Do some stuff and by 11.. i'll be sleeping like a baby. So on average, i only have 1 and a half hours max per day to do my own stuffs And the whole cycle repeats the day after. I hope i am not scaring anyone, but audit work is really tough, The hours are long, public holidays and weekends does not necessarily mean you can rest at home. But the plus side is, you will learn alot of stuffs. You get to meet many new people. And it is of course very interesting. And the most important thing is..*drumrolls* you might even LOSE WEIGHT!! i dont know if i am imagining it or what,. but i do find myself feeling a tad bit lighter lately. hehe...

I miss doing all the stuffs that i was so used to doing. Im miss watching my tvb dramas, i miss surfing the net, i miss going out for movies, dinner or whatever that comes to mind, i miss having all my time in the world to spare, i miss home, i miss alot of stuffs. I miss my life before working. >.< I miss all you people that i love so much! I miss hanging out at night. I am so not accustomed to sleeping ealry and wake up early routine. Those who know me will surely understand the suffering i am facing everyday .. waking up at 6!!!! *SOBS*

So if you were to ask me what i think of working life? i would say bring me back to uni! Teeheeee..

CONNED!

well.. to put it on a nicer note, i got semi-conned.

why you ask? Its just one of the few things that could go wrong when you decide which movie to watch. I bet it happen to you a least once.. when you go to the cinema.. thought that the particular must be good because they semi-cheat you into believing that the movie is good because they the only part they show you in their sneak previous are the good parts in the movie, and sometimes if you're really unlucky, those little bits of sneak preview parts are the only good parts in that movie!! wth right? i second you. When i think of hese things.. many examples of movies that i felt i got cheated on by their sneak previews are bridge to terrabethia(not sure if i spelled it right) .. that movie is a conner! whats with 28 weeks, hide and seek and countless of others. But i must say, once in a while, you do get a truly good money, worth every cent of your 10 bucks, and if its on student id price.. wala! you got yourself a good deal!!

ok.. where was i? oh ya.. back to the semi conned issue. I dont really know how to put this because i just got back from pavillion and watched this particular movie that got me thinking" what am i doing here"? its not very bad.. but its not very good, nor is it an average movie that you can accept and just watch it cuz you already paid for it. Thats why its semi conned. It is those kind of movie that can make you feeeling blah. As in bleh!. Its not as bad as the movie "My mother is a belly dancer" or "When a stranger calls". The latter is a real cheap flick horror movie wannabe! bleh!

Why am i keep strayin away from the topic tonight..? ok.. we shall go back.

This particular movie that i am talking about is none other than "In the name of the King".

In the name of what you say?? Double sigh-s. When you see the poster, one might be expecting something good you know. Dah-la the name also so glamorous.. the title itself creates a certain sense of curiosity... But.. the higher your expectation... you know the rest. Everything was BAD.
Bad actors, bad production, bad script.. and curiosity? .. none! You dont even have to guess what will happen cuz its as easy to predict as in predicting whether a child will take a candy!.

Enough said.

So.. i got semi-conned into spending my saturday watching In the name of what? ..
Haiz.

At least the company was good. :)

I work out some reasons why people would actually watch this movie. Here goes..
1.) You got conned by the poster/title (just like me..)
2.) You're a movie addict. Any new movie that comes by, you just have to watch it. (Like wise here.. :>)
3.) You bought the wrong tickets. Dont laugh.. It does happen.

And if after reading this, you still decide to watch it..
i conclude that you must be rich. (RM10 ONLY MA..u say) Either that, or you just wanna try out to see how bad it is. Not a very smart move, i would say..

Either way.. dont say i didnt warn you.. In fact, you should thank me in return for saving your RM10 bucks! Heck, i watched it for RM12 bucks today! >.< ??

Instead, do channel your RM10 bucks to movies like Rendition instead.. not bad.. not bad..

Upon writing till now, i just realize how long i have blogged about one single lousy movie that i spend my precious saturday on. Hmm.. either the movie really bothered me or i am just plain very "tak han.." :)

Teehehe..

warning: many many many words ahead.

promises made.. promises kept. : ) i promised to update, and here i am. *smiles ever so proudly*

Just finished some work and... since tomoro is a public holiday.. so i thought.. why not layan abit my blog that have been set aside to the empty dungeon for some time. PLus, some ppl are.. well, for some reasons which i do not know .. seem to be ala ala promoting and complaining that i didnt update and busy wit my skeletons.. so.. wut to do.. but.. i'm really happy that some ppl actually want to read or maybe dun want to but cant help it but read or read to fill time or simply reli do wanna read to noe more about whats happening in my life... hehe.. either way, im
: > !

So.. to save time.. since i no loner have much left since i started work.. here goes the breakdown :

22-25/12/07-Malacca outing which was veli veli nice! too bad, the 6 of each, none brought a cam.. cuz each tot the other will bring it.. -.-" The food was nice la no doubt.. lodging is free courtesy of friend's sista condo ^^.. plus, safari world .. neh.. when we went to see the elephant and have to feed them sugar cane cost RM2 each! The thing is.. no matter how many you feed, they still want more! And when you dont give them more.. plus if you sit on the front row.. hah! Kena air liur nya.... adui... the safari ride was not bad.. altho i find that the humans are more amuse over the animals than vice versa.Guess they got bored of entertaining too many of us too many imes in a day and countless times in a year! PLus, the lions are too thin for my liking, and the tigers, alto well fed and beautifully striped, they are damn lazy man. Didnt see them move a muscle.. hehe! oh ya! Xmas was cool too! Pavillions's decpration is super nice! Whhite Christmas .. jus how i like it ! =)

26/12/07: Yours truly birthday. =) Thank you to those who call/sms/testi/msg/mail/snail mail me. You ppl made me reli reli happy! =) Tq to those who called from overseas .. Felt so warm and surprise bcuz you guys actually do that for me. ^^ TQ for the surpise that i got in Malacca. That was one of the very few times that a surprise actually really work without having fake it. =) You guys are reli good actors. hmm.. got me all fooled up and rolled up under your sleeves.. hmm... ^^ Plus, Had a very good seafood fiesta and movies, outings in pavillion and many more. Plus, i shifted to my new place on this day too!
Indeed a memorable one.

This year is abit weird cuz some ppl who i was almost 100% certain will wish me didnt.. :( but some that i totaly did not expect it did! : ) So for those who didnt.. hmm.. i rmb u!.. so.. if ur under this category, i stil accept belated wishes! hehe.. kidding onlyla.. no.. i mean really! for real.. ^^

31/12/2007- New Year Eve!!
Marks the ending of year 2007. Haiz. The mark of my ending uni life and the beginning of a new page. We reli had a blast la.. thats all i can say. Sakae Sushi was delicious and scrumpous to begin with, plus.. if you are hanging out with 3 very crazily siao funny and daring girls... hmm... expec the unexpected!.The boys cant even meet our energy level! wakaka.. that nite.. hmm.. nvr had i wished strangers that pass by happy new year and smile and sing to them for no particular reasons, alomost kena kiss by some westerners who i think actually meant well, just like a new year greetings, nvr kacau a policeman on duty and talk crap wit him, nvr had i intentionally and purposely enter to teh danger zone in bukit bintang that is filled with ppl armed with snow sprays and ribbons sprays when we dont even have one, nvr had i wear a mask and walk down the streets and blow my whistle and wished everyone happy new year as if i was doing a free promotion.. but witout pay of cuz and nvr had i receive such beautiful flowers. Many first times. Really felt like i started 2008 with a bang! Unlike some health ministers of cuz.. i guess i waslucky to be on the other side. Naughty Naughty boy he is.. ^^ (no pun intended of cuz)

2/1/2008- My first day of work. Felt kinda lost like a stray wet kitten under a heavy pouring rain with no shelter to take cover from.. but.. u noe la.. first day.. so i guess its.. erm.. normal? ^^ .. hopefully..
I think i put the capital b in blur .. at least thats how i felt. ^^ BUt.. after 1 week of work.. am slowly beginning to adjust and get the hang of stuff.... Workload is quite alot. Busy as its the peak period of cuz.. and plus im relatively new in this field. Many things to learn. many many many things to learn. Sometimes i feel like there is no more time for myself. I really really miss college and uni life. I miss eveyrthing. I miss doing things at spur of the moment, but now.. i cant even go for a movie without planning the time properly.. *sobs* some things you just have to let go.. in order to hopefully gain something better. for those who are concern if this marketing girl can survive in an accouting world..? the answer is im surviving. ^^ no doubt i am struggling abit.. and at times i do feel that everyhting is just so wrong and that the thought of quitting did flash tru for a nano second tru my mind.. yes, im stil surviving. I was used to knowing what i was doing, how to do it and evey related matters. Finishing the job was not an issue. the issue was how good can i make it be. i used to have that. But currently, theres so many new things to learn and i really hope that the unfamiliar will be familiar to me soon. For now, i'll just have to have my fingers and toes crossed and double crossed that i will start to strive and not just only survive. ^^

Its getting late. way to late. But since i can go in anytime tomoro (Yes, i have to work tomoro altho its a publice holiday, but its ok wit me.. better! cuz can do more wokr and learn more.. ^^) so.. sleeping at 3 . and waking up at 8.. shud be ok kua..

so.. im signing off now..
dont miss me too much... ^^
will update as and when i can. =)

Happy 2008! May you have a good and blessed one.