One half me, the other half you.

See this guy above? He iz Shakespeare. And he iz a hopeless romantic. Some of his femes quotes are.. "I love you with so much of my heart that none is left to protest". Beautifool aint it?

Alright, imma gonna try my hands on it too.. so here goes:

I love you even when you're with your checked shirt & crocs. 2 of the things i dislike the most. Heck, i'll even shop around to get you one. (:

I love you even when you tell me you love me not cuz i'm beautiful. (seriously, kent chan.. what were you thinking? )

I love you so much it made cupid cried.

Now to seal the deal..... i made you this collage when i'm having fever while you're vacationing away at Penang.

See that Shakespeare? Beat that.

The week that was.. in pictures

Thoughts

I believe that if I am totally comfortable with where i am and what i am doing now, i am not pushing myself hard enough, and thus limiting my potentials and how far i could actually go. But I also believe that if i am comfortable with my current life, wtf make it harder?

I used to believe that if I am perfectly happy and when things are going well with my life, i must have overlook something. But now i realized that it is not something that is impossible and that i too, deserve to have it.

When i was a very young person, i used to dream of fairy tale endings, perfect weddings with churches, beautiful white gowns & bull dogs in tuxedos, used to believe that everyone is a good person with good intentions, that love should be unconditional and you must put yourself out there. But then, the world i though i knew did not turn out exactly how i imagined it to be.. and then i stopped dreaming. But now, my long held thought and decision seemed to be challenged day by day and i am beginning to allow myself to dream a little bit more each time.

I sometimes lay awake at night and wonder how ironic life is. How we are always looking for something out there which we conveniently thinks must be better than whatever is within our reach now. And then we make ourselves travel and circle one big round to seek for it only to find that the best of things were all along just right next to us.

August 2008 had been the most difficult time in my life. Although it took me quite a while to gather all my courage, i am finally someone i can be proud of in February 2010. I can finally let go of all the emotional baggage and start life, the right way. Have not looked back ever since.

I feel that i am not where i am supposed to be now. I can take in more. I do however still believe that this will change as it is just a matter of time and opportunity. I however will stick by my belief that i will only succeed by having my conscience clear, no matter how tempting things can be at times to just take the easy way out.

I acknowledge that i am not always an easy person to be with and i can be difficult at times. It must have been difficult for you.

I believe that one could not go wrong if their actions/ thinkings are always based on good intentions. And this belief, has never changed.

I iz a chef today!

Clockwise from top left:

(Stir fried organic cabbage with garlic and dried praws, grilled salmon marinated with italian herb and salt, herbal eggs & the final piece + chicken sausages)

This is me today --->

Gave my culinary skills a test today and got myself to cook a simple lunch for two.

Outcome? Hmm.. i think its alright for someone who has not cooked for the past 2 years.

7 findings after the lunch cook-out today:

1. Salmon is a very difficult fish to cook. Its skin kept sticking on the pan and its meat was on edge of breaking apart! Bought 2 slices of salmon, but end up with 1 and a few bits and pieces. Salmon, whyyyy?

2. It takes a lot of effort to cook just a simple lunch. From the ingredient shopping to washing and slicing and marinating and stir frying right up to cooking the rice! phew* its even harder than work!

3. Always buy extra ingredients when you are a first timer. For my case, portions for 2 became 1. Dont ask why, you know.

4. Frozen food is very handy. If you feel you dont have enough dishes, just throw in some sausages , better still some scramble eggs!

5. It is a tiring process. Cant imagine doing this everyday. Salute to housewives around the world.

6. Your partner will usually say it taste good and gives you words of encouragement. Despite the vegetable is too salty or the salmon taste a tad bit weird. :D common, they had to right? teehehe..

7. Kitchen is really not a place I can shine. T.T To my future kids, I'm so sorry.. but McD taste good, no?

Cheers to a good lunch, probably more because of the company than the food.. hehe

Crossed

Me

Me to You

You

Its times like this that i want to avoid..

Note to self: The year of 2010

With a couple of my old buddies, on the third day of Chinese New Year, I found myself loittering the streets of Klang and landed myself unexpectedly at the oldest temple in Selangor for a prayer or two.I did the same thing that many people would do when they are in a temple of course.. i asked for my future in the year 2010.Apparently, the month of Feb-April i will experience good fortune and will not have problems financially. Then comes month Aug-Oct, when the gold meets the wood (hmm..) is the period of time where i can basically get every single thing that i ever wished for. So these are practically the best months of my life this year. But then again, i was also once told that you shouldn't disclose such things out, it should be kept to yourself, similar to birthday wishes, it will not come true if you say it out. So in this case, tak jadilah i punye.. is it? *cue to curse*

2010 started off rather shaky for this already shaken soul. I guessed the balance of pain and agony of 2009 was carried forward to 2010 in spite of many attempts to zerorised this inventory. If you think the saying "Time will heal anything" is cliche, dont. Because it does carry some sliver of truth in it. With the first quarter of the year almost coming to an end, yours truly is proud to say that she has been coping pretty well and with time, the wound shall heal with minimal scars. If you had watched Alice in the Wonderland, i feel like the blue caterpillar now. Ready to transform. I feel better nowadays then i have been for a long while. I thank God for the past years memories and experience that he had arranged for me, but i believe the future holds a more promising hope for me.

Having said that, i shall now break my chain of not making any resolutions for the new year as i intend to keep it this time.

This year I shall...

1. Start taking care of my health and my overall well-being. Try to not over utilize my tickets to hospital visits and basically just try to stay healthy & rmb to take and continue taking the daily supplements..Shouldnt be too difficult to fulfill this, no?

2. Make sure to finish reading every book before purchasing a new one..

3. To dedicate myself to work , also my main source of income *ehem*

4. Must start saving for rainy, wet, thunderous days.. actually just saving because i have a very cute looking thing to keep my coins in! *blush*

5. To purchase more beauty products, hey girl, you just cannot continue using 1 (one) type of lotion for the whole body! Plus, 1 eyeshadow color, 1 eye liner, 1 blusher, 1 powder, 1 mascara and 1 lip balm will not be enough to make you look fabs! :) Good excuse to start shopping for more!

6. Drink sensibly. Get wasted less. Tipsy is the way to go.

7. More family time, ladies night out and friends outing. * I know i have not been around much, but it will change now on.

8. To thread the roads ahead with caution .

I think my chances of succeeding are better this year. Have a good feeling that I will make it. So will you, if you have made a resolution this year. My sincere best wishes to everyone. Goodnight and cheers to a good year! :)

I pray for the strength to accept things i cannot change, the courage to make the changes when need be, and the wisdom to tell the difference.