Forever is merely a word uttered at a point of passion.

Certain is only as good as winning on a 21 table.

Yet again, I'm telling you, yes. In the mirror you- never put your heart at your sleeves.

The probability of hurt is way past its gains.

I'm not a princess, and this aint a fairytale

Tonight a sudden feeling of remorse enveloped me. Both past and present.

Compared to most people, I tend to worry alot. Most times- unnecessary.

But can I say the same for tonight? The same for me? Can a goodnight sleep make things right? Can it shake the heavy load away from this heart that is threatening to weaken and completely shut off its surroundings?

An answer i desperately need, but will not necessarily get.

Goodnight world.

Happy Birthday to me

I officially turned 25 today. Older, and much happier.

Since I just had my best birthday ever, I'll sealed it with highlights of the things I've did this year, & proud of it :

1. Survived through days of hospitalization during CNY (which happened to coincide with Valentine's this year). I cant deny that I did not cried buckets, but I managed. :)
2. Bold enough to pursue Master while clocking more than 10 hours of work (sometimes more), and is currently maintaining a CGPA of 4.0
3. Took destiny into my own hands & made a move that could make or break me by quitting my old job i.e my comfort zone, leaving individuals who are not just mere colleagues but close friends and forgoing my potential bonuses to a new, unfamiliar environment which i believe promises me hope, a better future and the capability to feed my continuous hunger for progression
4. Started dating my best friend of 4 years
5. Had countless road trips all around Malaysia and splurged on various overseas trip for next year! woots* wallet, did I hear you cried?
6. Remained loved by friends and family (aah.. how self satisfying this can be )
7. Bought a really nice, studious looking study table made of special wood that cost me about 800++ bucks. Used it for less than 5 times. *before you judge, the purchase was totally worth it!* :)
8. Had the best birthday celebration. ever.

the week that was..

1.

Hello GuangZhou :) Managed to get some reallllllyyy good deals, air tics & accomodation at insanely great price! I can has chinese. lol.

2.

Almost end up with this hair cut lookalike!! The back looks good. But I'm damn proud cuz i managed to resist the hairstylist's persistence to chop of my fringe and make it resemble like a coconut! HAH! *The Power Of Resistance* LoL

3. Completed my first week at work. Office looks new. Workstation is almost the same as previous, but its in white this time. *my fav* building is super new, but the security checking is a pain. din have ID for the first few days, i had to register every.single.time i go out for lunch. work is fine, went back close to 8pm on the 2nd day, already?? Colleagues been great, 90% female, never shortage for fun cuz boss is a junkfood addict like me! *yay* So people, yes, i'm doing okay here dont worry ya? :) everything looks good now, all except my IDs, internet access and email setup. sigh. Pls be ready soon..... *fingers crossed*

I has sad

I wish that if you could just look past everything that i'm not, then you'll start to appreciate everything that i am.

Simple Guide to Life

A compilation of tested & proven guides to life that works for me, but might not on you. Read with caution, like seriously. :D

1. If you have sensitive skin, stay away from body piercing. Your body has the correct number of holes in it. Do not feel the need to make any necessary addition.

2. When you're planning to bitch about someone, better not think about it & text at the same time. Chances are you'll mistakenly forward the message to the unintended recipient. (:

3. Contrary to what many believes, it pays to be bitchy at times. So choose your friends carefully. See with your heart, not with your eyes for it can only look so far.

4. Never trample on others on your way up, for these are the people you'll see on your way down.

5. You might be all ready and driven to chase your dreams while you're still young, but dont forget to slow down and enjoy life. You can only cope so much. You're not expected to be perfect. But you're expected to live up to your fullest potential.

6. The best survival tools you'll ever need in life is a few strong instincts, some good networking , a cockroach-like nature ( heck, have you heard they're the longest surviving creature on earth?), a few close-knitted friends who'll tell you straight to the face when you're fat (yes, the truth hurts, but only real friends will care enough to say it out) & a good pairs of shoes. : )

7. Buy on impulse. seriously. Because it never matters. I bought my 2nd laptop on impulse and sold it off in a week. I though long and hard on my very costly ikea table which looks ooh so deliciously classy, and i've used it less than 10 times. So go on, buy that 1 thing you really want, because its never much on the practicality, its the enjoyment you get from the buying process! lol.

8. Never try to understand women. You're completely wasting your time.

9. When a women is pissy, get your ass off the room. Give her some time to cool down, she'll probably realize how wrong she was. haha.

10. Admit it, men loves women who can cook. So if you suck at it, get some lessons - like now!

11. If your other half is angry at you, try sending mms of your cute nephew/niece.. bribe her with cute looking babies. Works every time.

12.Its so easy to be depressed. But it takes alot of effort to stay happy. So challenge yourself.

13. Nothing beats the monday blues than quirky dirty jokes in your mailbox, first thing in the morning from a cool colleague.

14. Never overdo your makeup. The basic powder, some eye liner , a good stroke of mascara and a bit blusher is all it takes to look au naturele. :)

15. Women likes guys with some sense of humour & who looks confident about himself. Even if you dont have it, fake it. Sooner or later, it'll feel natural, like second to nature.

to be continued...

Not your ordinary foodcourt

So sometime last week, Kent picked me up from work at 8-ish for our usual dinner. We were both dead hungry, we could have eaten each other's limb (i kid you not) , but luckily there's this foodcourt just a drive away- phew! save us the trouble.and mess. hehe*

Once we pulled over, a sudden sense of tingling bells tells us that something is not right. Where in the world would a foodcourt throw in free entertainment while you eat? And this is not the kind of entertainment sane ppl our age would enjoy, for they are singing chinese oldies in a rather high pitch, off note and suspiciously seducing voice. Hmm..

But i was already dead hungry (rmb the limb?) .. so i dragged Kent in, disregarding his protests. hehe*

Once in... CONFIRMED.

Picture speaks a thousand words.

The entire foodcourt was filled with uncles- of all size and ages - mostly bald, hairy and perv looking. And you know the best thing? They were all sitting facing the stage. Each time a lady finished singing her song, another come up. There were a good 7-8 different ladies that night! (Notice my choice of word? Ladies instead of girls? or chicks? You know what i mean..)

Each table of uncles had 1 or at most 2 ladies accompanying them. Hmm.. talk about being dodgy!

There's also these 2 matured looking ladies selling flowers to the 'fans' for them to give it to the singer of their choice.. and they re-use them! wtf!! talk about being entrepreneurial! You buy 1 flower and you re-sell it for god knows how many times!

Tsk tsk tsk.. felt like being in a low cost, cheapo night club. Didn't get to see any 'actions' that night tho . Just some ladies shaking the hands of the uncles, introducing themselves each time they join a new table. sigh. Boring!

So half way eating, while surrounded by hum sup looking uncles, i stopped and ask Kent,

"They better not think i am 'accompanying' you huh?"

The smirk on his face was enough to make me want to knock the lights out of him. Then he replied, "Still wanna come here next time?"

WTF.

Damn, i hate it when i'm wrong. :/