Looking back at time

In this fast paced society where you either catch up or risk being left behind, i forgot what it feels like to be young, ever hopeful and care-free.

I miss the person I was when I was just 12 or 13, just stepping into high school.

Life was simple back then. Or had I been more easily content during those early years of my life?

I remember not having to worry about anything other than if i could finish copying my add maths homework on time, or wishing it would rain so we could skip PJ- pendidikan jasmani (i hate the fact that we have to change to our white shirts and track bottom, get all sweaty and then change back to our school uniform without bathing! no offense to those who enjoyed it) or wishing and crossing my fingers that Mr.Long- my psyhics teacher wont call me up to answer any questions today or hoping that the guy whom i have crushes on will notice me. you get the drill.

But then again, I am only saying this because this is me, now. I'm sure that at that time, all these issues seems so huge and of high weightage. And this, is exactly what I am hoping for myself in the future.

I wish that a few years down the road, i will look back at myself and say-hey girl, chill.. no big deal what you're dealing with back then. But then another whole set of different issues will surface and we would have to re-invent the wheel. But if it gives your heart a certain level of comfort, why not?

I guess this is how we mature. How we grow up physically and mentally.

People used to say this every single time that its beginning to sound cliche- that time heals everything. I'm beginning to think there's some amount of truth in it.

For that, cheers everyone. Leave your troubles behind this Christmas and have a happy holiday. :)

Beaten like a defeated wrestler

I keep going back these paths.

I keep telling myself that I wont let me feel this way again, but again and again I allow myself to sink deeper in this black hole.

You tell me things will get better. You lied.