Long overdue

Bonjour... hehe

I feel like updating my blog actually... but then.. i feel not suddenly.
So many things happen , so many stuffs going on, i dun even know where to start!!
I will update my blog a.s.ap.
Just not tonite... cuz.. im dead tired like a dead cow.. ><
and this posting is just to prove i'm still aliveeeeee~

HUgs.
Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays ppl!

officially ending tomorrow...

never ever go to pasar malam when you are freakin hungry like a starved cow. Never. no buts. just dont try it if you're trying to put off those kilo-s. *sigh* I wish i knew better.. i ate so much just now, and i'll prolly have to eat more later cuz the food is not finished yet.. i now weight and feel like a whale. literally.

and i guess i should be panicking now.. for i have only read 1 chapter of moral.. but.. somehow.. i dont feel so. wut u think? serious? cheh.. i bet the majority of u guys also sama case with me ler... right? hehe... nvm nvm.. relek.. still got time. *console self*

after tomorrow, it is really the end. and i really have to start preparing for working life! feel so grown up all of a sudden. Abit scared, abit excited, my heart feels heavier by the second knowing there's so much i love that i would have to leave behind, abit nervous too cuz i do not know how my new life would be. And you know whats the best thing? lately, well.. not exactly lately cuz its been bothering me for quite some time.. i worry about alot of stuff. but some are totally unnecessary! like i should be worrying bout whether i can perform in my new work, or whether i'll be able to learn fast or not, or etc.. but instead i worry about whether got ppl teman me eat lunch or not! i know.. wth ??? >.<" wth wth wth.

i cant wait to be a young working adult. i dont feel like working. yes, the very contradicting me.

wonder what there is to do after tomorrow. there are a few clubbing sessions. ah joo's on wed and hazel's on thurs. dont think i'll be joining.. cuz.. there's tons of stuff to pack and.. of cuz.. the fact that i dont reli club much. :D I should stop now. as in now. the moral notes are calling for my attention. tell me again why are we taking this subject in the last sem? @#$%$#^%^% *oops* i did not say that.

i really really hope i could do some of the questions. just enuf to pass cuz.. its not counted in our cgpa anyway. but a pass is required. so.. if you feel like doing some good deeds tonight, pray that i'll do well. and GOOD LUCK to everyone taking the moral paper tomoro!


pretty please?

the many faces of me.

warning:
viewer discretion needed. gazillion vain pictures ahead. view at your own risk.
if you see a need to scratch your eye balls out, do not look for me.

the many faces of me..


way back when i was still a juvenile..


me, dated 3 years back.. college days..


somewhere.. after college..working while waiting for uni to start..


beginning of uni life.. i look blur, i was blur! still am, no?


(2006) 2nd semester of my 1st yr in uni.. ran for the student representative election *thanks, hugs. i still remember what you guys did for me up till today.


the day i organized the 1st big event in uni-Talent Nite 2007. the pics abit blur. will update more on this later.


random pic, and yes, i know, i look silly with the cap @ aquria klcc


random, not my flowers.. -.-", random

had enuf of me yet?... hehe.. did i hear a no? okay.. guess i'll continue then.. : )


2006 & 2007 malacca trip




vaiva- thesis presentation day. one of the most freakin nerve-wrecking, scary,tension and important day of our entire uni life.


gone were those long hair days.. : (



say hello to shorter hair! wut.. not clear enuf?



ok ok.. nearer.. hows that? : P

i took some time uploading this k? *proud-nyer* hehe.. managed to find smtg else to do.. other than read my moral.. =)

ok ok.. i think i should put you out of your miseries.


so how? like it, no?

see ya!

morally deprieved.

moral paper on wed.

percentage of studies done? .. less than 5 percent.

degree of severeness? erm.. i dunno.. dun want to know.

i never believed in moral paper. what, you study it and you become a better person morally? *pfffft* so not true.

but anyway, anyhow.. u cant run away from it. so .. i guess the best thing to do is.. study? i feel so lame.

ughh! ughh! ughh.! i dont wanna study moralllllll~

and btw.. found a new crib in Bandar Sri Permaisuri... thats where i'll be moving to.. to make it more convenient for me to travel to muh work place. hehe

too-dee-loo!

random..

got my chat box. :P

managed to remove the borders out of my pathetic lookin emoticons but the white areas are still there. so, i gave up! *ugh* somebody pls helppppppppppp cant seem to get it right.

wanted to put slide picas.. but.. erm.. the pc is so freakin fast.. so.. nvm that.. it takes like ages to upload. *failed attempt*

and my mood is.. erm.. not at its best today. i get irritated very easily. plus some crappy stufs that are ongoing now. >.<

nvm those.. anyways, i managed to watch the dance competition last night, and.. RF won. as expected. they were almost invisible last night, i would say. And i totally was in love with the taiwanese judge..(whats his name again?).. if im not mistaken.. he is Jolin's and Cyndi Wang's dance teacher no? Bobby looked absolutely handsome last night too! good show.. good show..

as for the clash of 4 titans.. i have no idea whatsoever whats going on now..as i did not go. : ) The M.U fan went with his kaki-s. hehe . better stil, i wasnt lookin forward to go either.. cuz.. erm.. its not really my thing. hehe. so.. its a win win situation as.... he get to watch it with his kaki-s and watch both matches (cuz if i were to tag along.. i will wanna go home after the first match kua..) while i get to stay at home and do my stuffs. hehe ^^
anyway.. im pretty sure he is enjoyin himself now. =) likewise for me here... =)
jus in case he happens to read this.. (i sure will accompany you if you want de.. hehe)

so... i guess i did pretty good today. ^^
got my blog lotsa new stuff. i'm sure she's happy.

wakakaka~

Laters.

lazy saturday.

*sniff*

initially planned to watch The Golden Compass, but it was already full as in not even enough to squeeze two people in ! we were already prepared to take the front seats but.. i guess others are faster. so.. felt like all dressed up but no where to go. *apa ni???*

anyway, i'm in the comfort of my condo now. the sky is abit dark and i think it will most likely rain.

so tonight is the final of Astro Battle Ground at Ruums KL. Been watching it on an off.. hope i get to watch it tonight. *hehe* my hunch on whos the winner? The one who will take home Rm25,000 woeth of moolah? hmm.. most prolly racken force. I like them. Not as in crazy over them, but one cant deny that they do look very comfortable on screen, and very entertaining. Whether can they dance or not, i guess its pretty obvious since all are from So You Think You Can Dance. But i would like to see the underdogs win tho. CReate some elements of surprise. So, Twister ET, I wish you both all the best. (Altho its like 99.9% that they will never know this, but.. just for fun :P)
CID Crew from our university will be perfoming in the finals too! Cant wait to see them dance! They have definately improved alot and my.. from what i heard they have alot of fans and supporters (Moi included) So.. all the best to them too! Have a great show and a great night, and of course have fun dancing!!!

Tonight is also Jolin's Concert at Genting! Din went, cuz im not a big fan of hers, but .. she's alright. (some of my girlfriends are her fans.. so..)

If i'm not mistaken, there will be two very big matches going on. I guess since the placement is so ngam Chelsea vs Arsenal, and M.U vs Liverpool.. they decided to make it big. hehe
There will be this celebration at Sunway Lagoon too. Don ask me about the details, as i dont know. hehe. Heard it over the radio that some guy will be coming too.. hailed as the ryan giggs before ryan giggs was even ryan giggs! hmm..
Will mostly watch it tomorrow night as i got an M.U fan with me. hehe
so.. gLORY GLORY MAN United!!!!~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ hehe.. wth.

alright then. im tired. im hungry. and i havent bath. Before i go.. have a look at some of these crazy thoughts. something to cheer up your saturday. =) Till then, have a great weekend.

1. Why did Sally sell seashells on the seashore when you can just pick them up anyway?

2. Why is it that if someone yells "duck" they are helping you, but if they yell "chicken" they are insulting you?

3. Why does someone believe you when you say there are four billion stars, but check when you say the paint is wet?

4. Why when people ask you "what three things would you bring with you on a desert island?" no one ever replies, "A BOAT"

5. How does Freddy Kruger wipe his butt?

6. Why do we say we're head over heels when we're happy? Isn't that the way we normally are?

7. How's come people tell you to stay a kid for as long as you can. Yet the moment you do anything childish or immature they tell you to grow up.

rating on i am legend--> 8.5857463847329 / 10

remind me why am i here again?

the 4th time of the day.. pretty impressive i would say.. *hehe*

oh ok.. i wanted to tell you about the movie i went and watched in the afternoon

no worries, am not giving you spoilers

heck, im too lazy to blog on the plots and endings anyways

one word only---> it was gooooooooooooooood.

at least i like it.

so stop being a picky and go watch it!! *hehe*

you wont regret it i am positively sure.

im not revealing any hints of the story..

so you can go with a curious yet peaceful mind,

knowing it will be a good movie.

more than worth it with our student rate of RM7 only. *student id rocks!*

hehe..

ooo and btw.. will smith looks absolutely deliciousss~

till then.

have a good night y'all. *bear hug*

blogthings? i like you. =)

came across this site called www.blogthings.com, and wippie! got meself occupied with some of these veli interesting quizzes... quite true to a certain extend.. i do have reservations about me not bein a good cook and stupid tho. *scoffs* how could i not be a good cook? ..
so take a look at these.. or dont bother at all.. either way, i'm pretty sure u will.. hehe..

Guys Like That You're Sensitive

And not in that "cry at a drop of a hat" sort of way You just get most guys - even if you're not trying to Guys find it is easy to confide in you and tell you their secrets No wonder you tend to get close quickly in relationships!

What Do Guys Like About You?

There's a Chance You Could Be Violent

Overall, you're a pretty chill person - and you have a good handle on your emotions. Sometimes your anger gets the best of you, and end up regretting how you act. Try to curb your temper more often. It only has to get out of control once to do some damage.

Could You Be Violent?

Your Relationship is Still Building Strength

You're relationship is fairly strong, but you're still working on making things solid. Make sure you're both treating each other with kindness and respect, even when things aren't going well.

How Strong Is Your Relationship With Your Guy?

You Are 44% Shy

Although you live a pretty normal life, you tend to be a fairly shy person. Many situations make you feel uncomfortable, and you sometimes find your shyness hindering your life.

How Shy Are You?

You Are 58% Grown Up, 42% Kid

You've grown up a good bit, but you still have a way to go before you're emotionally mature. You have the skills to control your emotions, you just have to use them.

How Emotionally Mature Are You?

You Have Many Alpha Tendencies

You're not a total alpha female, but you certainly know how to - and like to - get your way. You're forceful without being intimidating. You're confident without being vain. A perfect mix.

Are You an Alpha Female?

You Are Not a Cook

You know cooking isn't for you, and you wouldn't even consider trying to make a homecooked meal. And this is a very good thing. You've saved all your friends and family from unintentional food poisoning!

Are You A Good Cook?

You Are the Ego

You take a balanced approach to your life. You definitely aren't afraid to act out on your desires - even crazy ones. But you usually think first. Morals drive you as much as hedonism does. You've been able to live a life of pleasure... without living a life of excess.

Are You Id, Ego, or Superego?

You're Pretty Stupid

You got 3/10 questions right! It's probably time to get your head examined. You hardly know left from right.

Are You Stupid?

You Are a White Wine Woman

Breezy and casual, you know how to have fun when you're drinking. And even though you can kick back with a few drinks, you never let things get out of hand. Alcohol is not a social lubricant for you... it just enhances your already sparkling personality. You prefer to date a man who is optimistic, friendly, and funny.

What Kind of Drinking Woman Are You?

You Are a Mai Tai

You aren't a big drinker, but you'll drink if the atmosphere is festive. And when you're drunk, watch out! You're easily carried away.

What Mixed Drink Are You?

You Are 68% Happy

You are a very happy person. Generally, you feel content and that all is right with the world. Occasionally, you have a down day - but you have the ability to pick yourself right back up.

How Happy Are You?

*the end*

feel like taking one already? *hehe*

dark and cloudy.

The sky is dark, cloudy with the occasionally thunder. Reflects how i feel. Dark. Moody. Thunder as in feel like about to burst out.

*edited*

This is my life. I take the risks. I call the shots. I bear the consequences.

All i need is support and trust. And some love, of course.

Haiz, i called to chat and i end up feeling the way i am. Oh well, at least ethics turn out fine. =)

Im off to bath. Wash the heat away from me. panassss~

I am legend. Here i come~~~

yes, i dont sleep.

the blog is re-vamp. yes, again.. dont go -.-?? on me.. cant help it okayy~ its 4.55am approximately 4 hours to go before the ethics paper *ughh* had to de-stress. that bloody cup of coffee is to be blamed! *grunts* but why in the world did i had it in the first place?? *smacks head*

ok.. so i managed to gobble up 9 filled chapters of ethics in a day. to what extend i could vomit it out back later remains unknown. so if u happen to see me tomoro with my head hanging lose, you know what happened. ethics is just so.. erm.. ethical? hehe...

anyway, this is a completely meaningless blog i tell you, as i do not have anything to say. i'm mentally drained from studying the whole (i havent step out at all), my head feels heavier than my body and your body add up together (like real,), my mind tells me to sleep but my body cant or should i say cannot?, well.. erm.. wheree was i ?... *blackout*

so at the physical state i am now, i think i am drained. sucked out of all energy or the slightest sign of life.

so off to bed i go to salvage anythings thats left of me.

To all thats sitting for the ethics paper tomoro i wish me and you GOOD LUCK AND ALL THE BEST.

To the lead lecturer who did not give out any tips whatsoever- i dont like u. for now.. hehe

till then..

What if..

if u were an animal, what would you be?

hmm.. interesting question eh?
this question just pop-ed out of nowhere...

i guess if i were to be an animal (if i really really have to be one la-h)
i'd be a dog.

More specifically, a Shih Tzu.

Just coz its simply irresistably cute. PLus, you know what they say

about man's best friend? Yes, you got it right if "dog" appears tru your mind.

Well, i was thinking,

if i couldnt be a human, at least be something that will be
loved, fed, taken care of and close to human. ^^

I asked this question to SW too.. he say he will be a tapir.
And i was like -.-??

Why on earth tapir???
He say coz they are like very few in numbers and about to be extinct.

Hmm.. i dunno.. try and take a look at both pics below.
Would you rather be a cute shih tzu dog or a black and white animal with a weird nose, but quite a cute ass?

poem sharing day!

The Truth About Drink Driving

I read this in the paper,
And it really made me think;
That a quarter of all road accidents
Can be blamed... directly... on drink.

Now statistics, they tell you, will never lie,
But be wary of how they're used;
You need your wits about you,
It's easy to get confused.

If a quarter of accidents are had by drunks,
Then sober people have all the rest;
That's 75% if I'm not mistaken,
... (My maths never were the best).

But I'm not entirely stupid,
And I plan to stay alive;
So I'm gonna start driving drunk,
I'm three times more likely to survive.

Copyright; Ian Mackay - May 1995

i thought it was cool so i came up with this..

This poem you see,
this one right above,
i googled it from the internet,
cuz i suddenly feel like becoming a poet
but as you can see ,
if you can see what i can see,
becoming a poet, i shall never be,
anyway anyhow, back to the story,
i am not encouraging drink drinking, so please don't sue me,
drinking and driving is never the best combo for you and me,
so before you do it
please think carefully
the poem above titled" the truth about driving" is not dependable you see,
cuz i got it from a site named for the lunatic and crazy!

midnight creepy crawlie.

its exactly 1.07 am and here i am.. blogging.

whenever exams are near ANYTHING is better, anything except studying.

watched this Japanese drama Jotei (smtg on night club hostess)
and i tot it was like superb.
altho on normal days.. i would have dismiss it because i dont normally watch Japanese.
but i exhausted all my tvb, prison break n heroes till i hv none left.


surf the net aimlessly (bsc i finish checking everything)
and it felt very comforting.

the plain sight of watching the sky or clouds or just sit down n not move seems
like an interesting to do.

Have you ever felt this way?

The thought of having to pick up that very heavy few pages of slide notes
or the intimidating looking textbook
is enough to make you sleepy just thinking of it.
let alone actually reading it.

This is creepy..

Not very healthy i would say. Not for a final year final sem student.

Arghh.. i gotta do something. Anything! To get me out of this lazy bimbo attitude of mine.

Lord i'm doing, all i can,
To be a better student~~~

Did i just sang that? *gulps*

mes.s.y

its been raining the whole day.. n yes the weather is jus purr-fect. =) i just wrote this rather messy, negativity surrounded, whinny complaning blog in the afternoon. But guess what? i dunno what in the world happened, it deleted itself! maybe its just signs telling me its not appropriate to be posted.

Anyways, its now evening, n i am happy. Sometimes i really wonder how emotional can one person be. That mood comes and go before u realize it was ever there in the first place.

So back to my story.. it was such a nice weather, hence my nap.. when suddenly the phone rang and i was abit grumpy as i hate to drag my sorry ass to take the call. Anyway, i was in for a surprise as it was Deloitte's HR Manager calling to infrom me that they are offering me the job. : ) I was surprise so i told them i needed some time to consider. The very nice HR lady asked is it okay if i reply within 24 hours as they will be off to their annual dinner tomorow afternoon. I of course replied yes, no problem. hehe..

For those who have been in contact with me these few weeks, im sure u guys had enough of my dilemmas. *thanks for always being there* I got another job offer from BDO Binder earlier on and i am very keen on taking it. There are alot of pros n cons to consider.. but imnot gonna write it here as.. im lazy. I think i have already made up my mind. But i requested to consider anyway cuz i tot it might be very impolote to reject it rightaway. Anyway, i will call BDO to confirm tomoro n Deloitte to decline their offer. I like Deloitte no doubt, plus its really near my house.. but everything just seems to point me towards BDO. If you wanna know why in detail, u can ask me anytime. I am just very happy that i got offered the job for both of the interviews i went to. Its been some pretty stressing weeks when i started hunting for jobs at the beginning as i was not getting any reply. However, later on.. everythin fall into place.. Hmm.. must tell myself to be more patient in the future.

PLus im abit worried that i have yet to start my finals preparation. i havent been studyin a wink since i got back. tsk..tsk.. theres just so many things to settle.. i need to settle my room in my condo payments of rentals bills, set a date to move out so de newbie can move in, decide if i wanna move back to my house in pj to stay or move in with my friends cum future colleagues so that we can keep each other company n safe safe ^^ (u noe la.. crime rate veli high.. dangerous to go back home alone, especially if u have to ot!), plan my trips (malacca, langkawi, class trip etc) plus mua's birthday is comingg *hint* *hint* hehe Luna Bar.. i smell you~~~ plus my very last minute shopping for formals cuz i oni have like 2 sets (very de kasihan..) n not to forget i have to finish everything asap cuz im starting work like 2nd of January??!!!@!
Lord.. save me...

So here i am.. stil blogging about it when i should be studyin instead. But even if i wanted to start now, i cant.. cuz its dinner time. =P

My life is just so so so messy now. But its messy for the better. So off to dinner i go.

Bubbyee.

3/12/07

i'm working towards you. Closer from where i've started. Chasing after you. I'm letting go all i have ever hold on to. Chasing after you. I'm running towards you, but i'm not quite sure where to go or where i'll end up to. But still, i'm chasing after you.

I'm standing here, solid as ever. Will not budge, will not give up on u, until you make me move. Please forgive me for all i'm lacking. I might be completely imcomplete, but just give me a few years. I'll claim you. For now, i'm still chasing after you.

Theres nothing else to lose. I just hope you noe, you are so hard to reach. I keep my eyes on you, never letting go. But ppl are pulling me sideways, shoving me with others when all i wanted was you. They think they know whats best for me. But only i can be the judge of it. So what say me? I say im willing to try and take the risk. I rather regret doing it than to regret never knowing how the ending will be just because i didnt give it a try.

I'm really just hanging by a moment. BUt i'm still closer from where i've started. I am still chasing after you.

Once i've set my mind on something. It takes alot to make me change. Same goes here. Gimme 3 years min. I will get u. Pass with the first attempt. This is what i wish for. No matter what others try to say, bout how i dont quite fit the mold, i will prove them wrong. Why ever give someone whos trying her best a hard time? Is it ever appropriate to break a young soul spirit just so u get the benefit?

I'm beginning to fear human. I fear their ruthlessness. I fear how superficial they can be. I fear how i could not differentiate when they r kind, cruel or cruel to be kind. I fear how unreal some might be. I fear how some could try and manipulate ur mind telling u stuff to make u doubt urself. I fear for them.

A simple quest to work towards what u wish for. How could it get so tangled and complicated?

And i feel so sorry that i feel sorry for myself. sorry because i did not haven enough faith to belive in myself. Sorry because i fell for it. I got affected by it. Sorry because i felt sorry for myself one moment when i should have been happy and feel blessed instead.

Opportunity like this dont happen very often. Once let go, there might never be a second try.

Just so i know, i am stil chasing after it. I havent let go.

Tonite, i dont want the world to see me, because i dont think that they'll understand. When everything is made to be broken, i just want you to know who i am. I cant stop the tears that aint falling. But please see the fire burning in me and the moment of truth that shines tru my eyes.

woke up this morning and found myself emo.

im thinking that once i get back to sg long.. time will pass by so fast, that b4 i cud even say cheese, BAM! its 19th. the last day of exam = last day of uni life. ever.

i noe ive been bloggin alot about how its last n etc.. but i just cant get it off my mind..

its beginning to hit me that everything i hold to heart so dearly, i will have to let go.

starting work so early so solely my decision and im beginning to question myself, might it be too early?

i will only have about 2 weeks shy for holidays. minus the days taken to pack n move out of my condo..

i dare not think more.

im just a lil sad. thats all.. its really coming to an end.