Back!

I iz happih eu iz back. :)

It is only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye.

Days like this..

I hope it never ends.

R.I.P

I bought you both at a pet shop along the streets of Petaling. White Pearl was your breed. Its better to buy in pair, the pet shop guy said. That way, they will not get bored. You kept me company when i was alone. You entertained me during the times when i was down. You filled up the gaps when i was lonely and needed a channel to distract myself and to keep me occupy. You were the last piece of my past and somehow that makes it hard to say goodbye. I remembered why i never named any of you. I didn't want to grow attached. But somehow along the way i did. I was always on the verge of giving you away but i never did actually meant it. And now, you both are gone. Rest in peace my little guys. I will miss you.

"Sometimes its better to loved and lost, than to never love at all."

i iz in trouble.

Note to self

I believe that the harder you push your limits, the further you'll get to where you want to be.

Spread them wings, for your time has come to fly.

It's not how good you are, its how good you want to be. And while you're working towards that goal, stay happy.

We need more of this.

Not a happy chick.

One half me, the other half you.

See this guy above? He iz Shakespeare. And he iz a hopeless romantic. Some of his femes quotes are.. "I love you with so much of my heart that none is left to protest". Beautifool aint it?

Alright, imma gonna try my hands on it too.. so here goes:

I love you even when you're with your checked shirt & crocs. 2 of the things i dislike the most. Heck, i'll even shop around to get you one. (:

I love you even when you tell me you love me not cuz i'm beautiful. (seriously, kent chan.. what were you thinking? )

I love you so much it made cupid cried.

Now to seal the deal..... i made you this collage when i'm having fever while you're vacationing away at Penang.

See that Shakespeare? Beat that.

The week that was.. in pictures

Thoughts

I believe that if I am totally comfortable with where i am and what i am doing now, i am not pushing myself hard enough, and thus limiting my potentials and how far i could actually go. But I also believe that if i am comfortable with my current life, wtf make it harder?

I used to believe that if I am perfectly happy and when things are going well with my life, i must have overlook something. But now i realized that it is not something that is impossible and that i too, deserve to have it.

When i was a very young person, i used to dream of fairy tale endings, perfect weddings with churches, beautiful white gowns & bull dogs in tuxedos, used to believe that everyone is a good person with good intentions, that love should be unconditional and you must put yourself out there. But then, the world i though i knew did not turn out exactly how i imagined it to be.. and then i stopped dreaming. But now, my long held thought and decision seemed to be challenged day by day and i am beginning to allow myself to dream a little bit more each time.

I sometimes lay awake at night and wonder how ironic life is. How we are always looking for something out there which we conveniently thinks must be better than whatever is within our reach now. And then we make ourselves travel and circle one big round to seek for it only to find that the best of things were all along just right next to us.

August 2008 had been the most difficult time in my life. Although it took me quite a while to gather all my courage, i am finally someone i can be proud of in February 2010. I can finally let go of all the emotional baggage and start life, the right way. Have not looked back ever since.

I feel that i am not where i am supposed to be now. I can take in more. I do however still believe that this will change as it is just a matter of time and opportunity. I however will stick by my belief that i will only succeed by having my conscience clear, no matter how tempting things can be at times to just take the easy way out.

I acknowledge that i am not always an easy person to be with and i can be difficult at times. It must have been difficult for you.

I believe that one could not go wrong if their actions/ thinkings are always based on good intentions. And this belief, has never changed.

I iz a chef today!

Clockwise from top left:

(Stir fried organic cabbage with garlic and dried praws, grilled salmon marinated with italian herb and salt, herbal eggs & the final piece + chicken sausages)

This is me today --->

Gave my culinary skills a test today and got myself to cook a simple lunch for two.

Outcome? Hmm.. i think its alright for someone who has not cooked for the past 2 years.

7 findings after the lunch cook-out today:

1. Salmon is a very difficult fish to cook. Its skin kept sticking on the pan and its meat was on edge of breaking apart! Bought 2 slices of salmon, but end up with 1 and a few bits and pieces. Salmon, whyyyy?

2. It takes a lot of effort to cook just a simple lunch. From the ingredient shopping to washing and slicing and marinating and stir frying right up to cooking the rice! phew* its even harder than work!

3. Always buy extra ingredients when you are a first timer. For my case, portions for 2 became 1. Dont ask why, you know.

4. Frozen food is very handy. If you feel you dont have enough dishes, just throw in some sausages , better still some scramble eggs!

5. It is a tiring process. Cant imagine doing this everyday. Salute to housewives around the world.

6. Your partner will usually say it taste good and gives you words of encouragement. Despite the vegetable is too salty or the salmon taste a tad bit weird. :D common, they had to right? teehehe..

7. Kitchen is really not a place I can shine. T.T To my future kids, I'm so sorry.. but McD taste good, no?

Cheers to a good lunch, probably more because of the company than the food.. hehe

Crossed

Me

Me to You

You

Its times like this that i want to avoid..