Happy 50th Merdeka Day!!!!!

Putrajaya sky was beautiful in all its glory last night during Merdeka Day. As the clock strucks 12, amazing displays of fireworks left us all in awe. But as we, like the majority of the crowd was admiring the fireworks, one man, who came with his wife, mother and his army of kids stood out from the rest of us. He shouted Merdeka! while proudly lifting the Malaysian flag that he brought along. He kept shouting but i guessed he got a little frustrated as no one in the crowd followed him. then, what he said next somehow made me felt ashame of myself. He said and i translated " Today is our independence day, dont tell me u guys watch the fireworks till you fail to remember this?" He said this in an almost jokingly way (probably to avoid getting beat up later..) but who could blame him? There were no countdowns whatsoever as everyone was busy anticipating the fireworks instead of counting down to Merdeka, there were no proud cries of Merdeka! Merdeka! Merdeka! and i think, there were no moments of reflecting how fortunate we are today. it made me think that if Malaysia is a human being, he/she would have been upset as her/his birthday was forgotten.

i'm not saying that only by shoutin Merdeka! or waving the flag on Merdeka alone means we love our country and all, but what that man said, somehow hit me right on the spot! i felt embarrass deep down inside because deny it i may, but i and i think most of the people watching fireworks that night, might have forgotten or prolly gotten our priorities all wrong. What the heck, its our 50th Independece Day and i'm watching a firework display by not even our Malaysian team,but Team Japan (which by the way is really good. i think they will even win) i might have felt better if i spent the night, with a couple of friends in a mamak waiting for countdown and....10..9..8...3..2..1.. MERDEKA!!!!!!! u noe. give a moment of reflection but then again.. would i? ( erm.. the fireworks was really really awesome..) omg.. am i contradicting myself? but then again, as i'm writing this thing... i somehow realize that no matter how we celebrated Merdeka, regardless of countdowns or none, as long as we give a moment to ourselves and wish our country Happy 50th Merdeka, Malaysia in our hearts.. i , in all ways, feels that it is more than enough.

As i'm busily terrorizing my key board typing this, i suddenly remember this article i read about one author commenting on how much have our country have truly changed since half a decade of our independence day. He was commenting on how much we are still lacking and if we could really be proud and still celebrate our Independence day despite our shortcomings? i for one have no hard feelings whatsoever as i feel that everyone has the freedom of speech, that is just his point of view and its good to question, and not just blindly comply. but, allow me to give my 2 cents worth, i believe that in all our shortcomings, things that we have yet to achieve and things that we are still weak at,By all means, right, left, front and back, we deserve this 50th Merdeka! Malaysia deserved to be celebrated. WE deserved to feel proud of our country, our homeland. Without the past, there will be no future. So screw those who feels that being Malaysian is not enough and that their homeland is always not good enough. i am a true believer of constructive comments and the continuous passion for improvements but not destructive and negative inflicted comments said to make us feel any lesser about what we are and where we come from.

The same goes to those who feels that our uni is not good enough or are ashamed of admiting or telling others where we come from. I simply could not comprehend why some would spend the time to post stuff online such as their dissatisfaction over the Corporate MOnday thingy. frankly speaking, i am not all that excited about it as well cuz it gets abit inconvenient wearing high heels, climbing up the stairs up till 5th floor and tryin to look all professional and nice at the same time. not to mention the frustration of not knowing what to wear or simply wearing the same formal every monday as our formal collections are still very limited. but in light of all this, i wonder, if its not bad and knowing the fact we could not change it, why not? is it worth it spreading negative comments about this? i have my own share of monday blues, not wanting to go uni cuz have to wear formal... but ... yet again... let us look at it as a practice of getting some use to wearing formal for our working lives. :) and btw.. by gradually increasing our formals now, it'll save us the heartache of having to forkout a huge amount of money later when we work... =P After all .. its just 1 day, and like what they say ''What dont kill us, only make us stronger".
(the writer is trying to convince, brainwash, psycho herself into accepting it too... ^^)

i in my own world and mind have no idea what went into me tonight. forgive me for my boldness(if any) and if i had directly or indirectly offend anyone (if any).. cuz.. its just my 2 cents worth. you can take it, or leave, which ever way suits..;)

1 and a half hour more till OUr Merdeka Day is over. BUt then again.,.. like what they say for Valentines, Mothers Day and Fathers Day and etc... dont just express your love that day only. that goes to today as well....

Happy 50th Merdeka Malaysia! A Proud Malaysian at heart. Always will be.

Proud to be a Utarian. This is where i obtained my tertiary education, met great ppl (u noe who u r) have tons of unforgettable memories and my last stop in my academic journey. (not planning on MBA btw...)

With this, Cheers~ Never be afraid of who you are and where you come from. :)