blog designer wannabe. take 2.

u noe wut? i'm wondering where this sudden blog-ga-frenzy came from.

3 postings in a day? update of layouts each time? man.. shud i start to worry? its.. so .. so unlike me. But anyways, i happen to lurve my blog's new hairdo (yep, thats wut i call it).

Pon and Zi, they r so cuteee i could almost eat them! (haha, just kidding.. relax.. pon and zi's hardcore fans..) For those who dun reli know who they are.. Pon and Zi are these two little very cute emo creatures. one is blue the other is yellow. i got one of them featured in my blog.. the one with the *smootch smootch* I cant differentiate which is pon and which is zi so.. lets just call mine ponzi. ^^ Cute arent they. I f u tell me u cud resist them.. u r so not my friend. (haha kidding.. kiddign.) But like them will you. seriously.

oKLA.. i think i shall not make any changes to my blog for the time being.. cuz i realize that all of a sudden i keep changing n changing them,. if i could, which i knew i would, i might even change it every hour or so! >.<>for the moment. But.. a fren of mine mentioned its too white... hmm.. shall i....? haha just kidding!

Erm.. if u've bear with me and read till this stage. ok ok! fine! i admit!I'm bored tonight. or should i say i was bored the whole day~ *blush* *blush*

Enuf of crapping d. Off i go... whispers to herself--->time to change friendster layout.... hehe..

... grrr..

omg omg! i just realized that all my pics gone d!!!!

blog designer wannabe.

i'm back! i noe wut i say my bout last blog postings and all.. but hey.. i'm back at pj.. so its not reli counted.

so.. back to the reason of this posting.. wey wey people.. noticed anything different? ... or u dont notice anything different? okies.. okies.. i give in. i bee-yoo-ti-fied my blogggg~ like it?

i heart it so! i totally luv those cute little polar bears.. so white.. so huggable.. n i love this new set of smilies i got. suddenly feel so pro.. i learn it all by myself kay.. so totally lurve how my blog looks now.. wut do u think?

what got me into changing the appearance of my blog was that i find it rather dull .. after facing it for so long.. and i came across some articles that said that smilies r supposed to make the blog readers smile wen they read ur blog. like they get to noe how u feel.. so guys, feeling happier already?

anyway, i'm back to pj for the weekend.. but will come back to sg long on sunday. study weeks are usually spent in sg long as.. theres just too much distraction i.e the tv astro is like practically calling my name. i swear its truee~ plus, i wanna spend more time there.. bau bau sikit the sg long smell.. eat more of the food.. walk more tru de sands.. u noe wut i mean.

my exam schedule is on 12, 14 and 19. so .. i guess i should start preparing now. i intend to remain in first class, and i really hope i will. *toes and fingers crossed* so i guess i'll start preparing my schedule.. i wanna mk it flat this time around.

my interview wit BDO turn out fine the other day. tq to those who wished me luck. i guess it really works! =) if everything goes well, i will start work on the 2nd of January. i noe.. abit like very de early.. but its ok. the early bird catches de biggie worm (hopefully).. but actually i just wanted to start early cuz i noe i need to work very very hard. ppl put in 100% i will nd to give 201% just to be the same or better than them! so... cheers to the marketing gal venturing into the accounting world! (yes.. i noe.. its not exactly my field, so sue me )

i also want to take this opportunity to thank everyone who has helped me and encouraged me all the while especially SW for driving me to all my interviews and waited long hours for me. u saw me tru thick and thin.. all my muka gelabah and nervous all u see ady.

And also to Ah Joo, tq very very much for everything u have done. ur reli very very--->

Dats all for now.. am sleepy. will continue later.. if i got anything interesting to post about. for now.. enjoy my blog's new look k? *bangga nyer*

MUAKS!

emo nyer.......

sitting in front of my pc.. at one of the many usual nights i have in my cozy flora green condo.
*sigh* now how many more of these nights will i still have to enjoy? tomoro is the last day of uni life. not exactly last as we stil hv our study weeks n exams.. but wut i mean is that i will no longer attend tutorials and classes and lectures etc.. it didnt occur to me that everything is reli coming to an end up till toay when i suddenly realize my friends' msn nics.. most of those who is like me , graduatin soon.. spoke of how much they will miss it and the last of everything and all. not to mention friends who sms me asking how i feel now that it is the last week. haiz* thanks guys for bringing out the emo-side of me. I tot i was ok, but i guess am not.

It just occur to me that i will no longer nd to drag myself to lectures or tutorials. no more assignments. no more being so care free that wenever we feel like goin out or to the movies v can do so. more of formal wears and lesser casual clothes. more responsibilities and lesser i-do-wut-i want-when- i-want-to. i cant like hey,dont feel like goin class today.. so dun go lor.. working just aint gonna accomodate that. n i guess no mroe living under the safe and warm umbrella of protection from the family.. and out to the "wilderness". dun feel quite ready to face all that and i guess many in the same position as i feel the same. so i guess the feeling is mutual.

I'm really goin to miss this place alot. I can imagine me coming back here every once in a while.. jus to breathe the air. When i left KTAR 2 years back.. i did the same. I go back whwenver possible.. drive tru the usual place i used to go, walk along the streets my friends and i used to walk, go back to the same stall we so often hang around.. but it didnt feel the same. Maybe cuz i knew that i dun belong there anymore. So, the first few months i went back more often, and as time goes by, the visits become fewer.. and fewer. But whenever i go back to Setapak, a certain feeling of familiarness and fondness still embrace me. and whenever i see those KTAR students .. i feel like one of them. So i guess.. when i leave UTAR, i will feel the same too. haiz* Am not ready to go~`

Everythins about to change. Haiz. I will miss all the great people. All my hangout buddies. wACKY Classmates. SRC. Everything. Some might go back to hometown. So, how am i gonna c u guys anymore?? *sobs* So i hope more will find work in KL la okie.. Dun go too far~ ^^
All the memories, all the friendships, ... i duwan to let go. T.T

hAIZ.. writ till here.. i suddenly dun feel like writing anymore. Words just aint enuf to fully xpress how i feel deep inside. But never forget that i do care.

Hugs. This might be one of the last blog posting i do in Sg Long Flora Green Condo Block C 12 Floor.

i feel like crying. damn. i'm weak.

the end of a beginning of and end.

Its been a while since i last wrote anything. Dun get me wrong.. i have yet to given up on my blog. Just that many things are running tru my mind.. i tried to plan, an d whenever i thought i got it all figured out... new things emerged and the plan goes haywire yet again. and again.

Week 7 of the last semester. The last of the very last. I still remember the first time i reach here. Din like it. BUt now, after 2 years. I heart it so. Learn so many new things, gain so much experience, things that i might not have gotten had i choose the other path and met so many great ppl. Some of whom hv already become like peanut butter and jelly in my life. I dun want my uni life to end, but end is inevitable. So cheers for a new beginning? maybe. talking bout new beginning.....

i'm talking a bold step out of my normal path. thankyou to those who ask me to step back to my original path, u guys make me realize that i reli want this path cuz im strong enuff to not being influenced by the words said. and thank you to those who have encouraged me. Thank you for believing in me. it reli fuel me up. the fire is burningg~~ as u can see.. ^^ thank you to those who hv helped me and guide me and shared alot of ur opinions and thoughts, i reli appreciate it. no matter i get it or not, u can expect a meal from me. =)

so off i go to get ready b4 3pm. the time has come. the long wait of 6 days since i last received the call. shud i say some magic words to further incrase my chances?? err.. how bout mani mani hom??? not quite right.. em... aza aza fighting! uish.. thats korean. i guess a simply do my very best will do.

Its not easy to taking my problems one at a time when they refuse to get in line. As such, a door is open for me, I go in and i'm faced with hundreds of closed doors. BUt whenever the world says "Give Up" I could almost hear Hope saying " Try it one more time".

By me, for me.

in the mirror i see,
reflection of a girl or a lady?,
working her ways through the rough and unforgiving sea,
stumbling once, falling twice but never giving up, you see,
its never easy, and easy it never will,
but underneath that fragile heart, its a will as strong as steel.

Just one of my amateur attempt at writing a poem. To the friend who wrote a poem about me for me in less than 5 minutes, i'm inspired by you. The lovely poem you showed me, the one you wrote but never had the chance to give it to the one that matters, was the sweetest poem i have ever read. both of the poems written by you was filled with originality that is so you. =) keep it up!

Happy 50th Merdeka Day!!!!!

Putrajaya sky was beautiful in all its glory last night during Merdeka Day. As the clock strucks 12, amazing displays of fireworks left us all in awe. But as we, like the majority of the crowd was admiring the fireworks, one man, who came with his wife, mother and his army of kids stood out from the rest of us. He shouted Merdeka! while proudly lifting the Malaysian flag that he brought along. He kept shouting but i guessed he got a little frustrated as no one in the crowd followed him. then, what he said next somehow made me felt ashame of myself. He said and i translated " Today is our independence day, dont tell me u guys watch the fireworks till you fail to remember this?" He said this in an almost jokingly way (probably to avoid getting beat up later..) but who could blame him? There were no countdowns whatsoever as everyone was busy anticipating the fireworks instead of counting down to Merdeka, there were no proud cries of Merdeka! Merdeka! Merdeka! and i think, there were no moments of reflecting how fortunate we are today. it made me think that if Malaysia is a human being, he/she would have been upset as her/his birthday was forgotten.

i'm not saying that only by shoutin Merdeka! or waving the flag on Merdeka alone means we love our country and all, but what that man said, somehow hit me right on the spot! i felt embarrass deep down inside because deny it i may, but i and i think most of the people watching fireworks that night, might have forgotten or prolly gotten our priorities all wrong. What the heck, its our 50th Independece Day and i'm watching a firework display by not even our Malaysian team,but Team Japan (which by the way is really good. i think they will even win) i might have felt better if i spent the night, with a couple of friends in a mamak waiting for countdown and....10..9..8...3..2..1.. MERDEKA!!!!!!! u noe. give a moment of reflection but then again.. would i? ( erm.. the fireworks was really really awesome..) omg.. am i contradicting myself? but then again, as i'm writing this thing... i somehow realize that no matter how we celebrated Merdeka, regardless of countdowns or none, as long as we give a moment to ourselves and wish our country Happy 50th Merdeka, Malaysia in our hearts.. i , in all ways, feels that it is more than enough.

As i'm busily terrorizing my key board typing this, i suddenly remember this article i read about one author commenting on how much have our country have truly changed since half a decade of our independence day. He was commenting on how much we are still lacking and if we could really be proud and still celebrate our Independence day despite our shortcomings? i for one have no hard feelings whatsoever as i feel that everyone has the freedom of speech, that is just his point of view and its good to question, and not just blindly comply. but, allow me to give my 2 cents worth, i believe that in all our shortcomings, things that we have yet to achieve and things that we are still weak at,By all means, right, left, front and back, we deserve this 50th Merdeka! Malaysia deserved to be celebrated. WE deserved to feel proud of our country, our homeland. Without the past, there will be no future. So screw those who feels that being Malaysian is not enough and that their homeland is always not good enough. i am a true believer of constructive comments and the continuous passion for improvements but not destructive and negative inflicted comments said to make us feel any lesser about what we are and where we come from.

The same goes to those who feels that our uni is not good enough or are ashamed of admiting or telling others where we come from. I simply could not comprehend why some would spend the time to post stuff online such as their dissatisfaction over the Corporate MOnday thingy. frankly speaking, i am not all that excited about it as well cuz it gets abit inconvenient wearing high heels, climbing up the stairs up till 5th floor and tryin to look all professional and nice at the same time. not to mention the frustration of not knowing what to wear or simply wearing the same formal every monday as our formal collections are still very limited. but in light of all this, i wonder, if its not bad and knowing the fact we could not change it, why not? is it worth it spreading negative comments about this? i have my own share of monday blues, not wanting to go uni cuz have to wear formal... but ... yet again... let us look at it as a practice of getting some use to wearing formal for our working lives. :) and btw.. by gradually increasing our formals now, it'll save us the heartache of having to forkout a huge amount of money later when we work... =P After all .. its just 1 day, and like what they say ''What dont kill us, only make us stronger".
(the writer is trying to convince, brainwash, psycho herself into accepting it too... ^^)

i in my own world and mind have no idea what went into me tonight. forgive me for my boldness(if any) and if i had directly or indirectly offend anyone (if any).. cuz.. its just my 2 cents worth. you can take it, or leave, which ever way suits..;)

1 and a half hour more till OUr Merdeka Day is over. BUt then again.,.. like what they say for Valentines, Mothers Day and Fathers Day and etc... dont just express your love that day only. that goes to today as well....

Happy 50th Merdeka Malaysia! A Proud Malaysian at heart. Always will be.

Proud to be a Utarian. This is where i obtained my tertiary education, met great ppl (u noe who u r) have tons of unforgettable memories and my last stop in my academic journey. (not planning on MBA btw...)

With this, Cheers~ Never be afraid of who you are and where you come from. :)