Long overdue

Bonjour... hehe

I feel like updating my blog actually... but then.. i feel not suddenly.
So many things happen , so many stuffs going on, i dun even know where to start!!
I will update my blog a.s.ap.
Just not tonite... cuz.. im dead tired like a dead cow.. ><
and this posting is just to prove i'm still aliveeeeee~

HUgs.
Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays ppl!

officially ending tomorrow...

never ever go to pasar malam when you are freakin hungry like a starved cow. Never. no buts. just dont try it if you're trying to put off those kilo-s. *sigh* I wish i knew better.. i ate so much just now, and i'll prolly have to eat more later cuz the food is not finished yet.. i now weight and feel like a whale. literally.

and i guess i should be panicking now.. for i have only read 1 chapter of moral.. but.. somehow.. i dont feel so. wut u think? serious? cheh.. i bet the majority of u guys also sama case with me ler... right? hehe... nvm nvm.. relek.. still got time. *console self*

after tomorrow, it is really the end. and i really have to start preparing for working life! feel so grown up all of a sudden. Abit scared, abit excited, my heart feels heavier by the second knowing there's so much i love that i would have to leave behind, abit nervous too cuz i do not know how my new life would be. And you know whats the best thing? lately, well.. not exactly lately cuz its been bothering me for quite some time.. i worry about alot of stuff. but some are totally unnecessary! like i should be worrying bout whether i can perform in my new work, or whether i'll be able to learn fast or not, or etc.. but instead i worry about whether got ppl teman me eat lunch or not! i know.. wth ??? >.<" wth wth wth.

i cant wait to be a young working adult. i dont feel like working. yes, the very contradicting me.

wonder what there is to do after tomorrow. there are a few clubbing sessions. ah joo's on wed and hazel's on thurs. dont think i'll be joining.. cuz.. there's tons of stuff to pack and.. of cuz.. the fact that i dont reli club much. :D I should stop now. as in now. the moral notes are calling for my attention. tell me again why are we taking this subject in the last sem? @#$%$#^%^% *oops* i did not say that.

i really really hope i could do some of the questions. just enuf to pass cuz.. its not counted in our cgpa anyway. but a pass is required. so.. if you feel like doing some good deeds tonight, pray that i'll do well. and GOOD LUCK to everyone taking the moral paper tomoro!


pretty please?

the many faces of me.

warning:
viewer discretion needed. gazillion vain pictures ahead. view at your own risk.
if you see a need to scratch your eye balls out, do not look for me.

the many faces of me..


way back when i was still a juvenile..


me, dated 3 years back.. college days..


somewhere.. after college..working while waiting for uni to start..


beginning of uni life.. i look blur, i was blur! still am, no?


(2006) 2nd semester of my 1st yr in uni.. ran for the student representative election *thanks, hugs. i still remember what you guys did for me up till today.


the day i organized the 1st big event in uni-Talent Nite 2007. the pics abit blur. will update more on this later.


random pic, and yes, i know, i look silly with the cap @ aquria klcc


random, not my flowers.. -.-", random

had enuf of me yet?... hehe.. did i hear a no? okay.. guess i'll continue then.. : )


2006 & 2007 malacca trip




vaiva- thesis presentation day. one of the most freakin nerve-wrecking, scary,tension and important day of our entire uni life.


gone were those long hair days.. : (



say hello to shorter hair! wut.. not clear enuf?



ok ok.. nearer.. hows that? : P

i took some time uploading this k? *proud-nyer* hehe.. managed to find smtg else to do.. other than read my moral.. =)

ok ok.. i think i should put you out of your miseries.


so how? like it, no?

see ya!

morally deprieved.

moral paper on wed.

percentage of studies done? .. less than 5 percent.

degree of severeness? erm.. i dunno.. dun want to know.

i never believed in moral paper. what, you study it and you become a better person morally? *pfffft* so not true.

but anyway, anyhow.. u cant run away from it. so .. i guess the best thing to do is.. study? i feel so lame.

ughh! ughh! ughh.! i dont wanna study moralllllll~

and btw.. found a new crib in Bandar Sri Permaisuri... thats where i'll be moving to.. to make it more convenient for me to travel to muh work place. hehe

too-dee-loo!

random..

got my chat box. :P

managed to remove the borders out of my pathetic lookin emoticons but the white areas are still there. so, i gave up! *ugh* somebody pls helppppppppppp cant seem to get it right.

wanted to put slide picas.. but.. erm.. the pc is so freakin fast.. so.. nvm that.. it takes like ages to upload. *failed attempt*

and my mood is.. erm.. not at its best today. i get irritated very easily. plus some crappy stufs that are ongoing now. >.<

nvm those.. anyways, i managed to watch the dance competition last night, and.. RF won. as expected. they were almost invisible last night, i would say. And i totally was in love with the taiwanese judge..(whats his name again?).. if im not mistaken.. he is Jolin's and Cyndi Wang's dance teacher no? Bobby looked absolutely handsome last night too! good show.. good show..

as for the clash of 4 titans.. i have no idea whatsoever whats going on now..as i did not go. : ) The M.U fan went with his kaki-s. hehe . better stil, i wasnt lookin forward to go either.. cuz.. erm.. its not really my thing. hehe. so.. its a win win situation as.... he get to watch it with his kaki-s and watch both matches (cuz if i were to tag along.. i will wanna go home after the first match kua..) while i get to stay at home and do my stuffs. hehe ^^
anyway.. im pretty sure he is enjoyin himself now. =) likewise for me here... =)
jus in case he happens to read this.. (i sure will accompany you if you want de.. hehe)

so... i guess i did pretty good today. ^^
got my blog lotsa new stuff. i'm sure she's happy.

wakakaka~

Laters.

lazy saturday.

*sniff*

initially planned to watch The Golden Compass, but it was already full as in not even enough to squeeze two people in ! we were already prepared to take the front seats but.. i guess others are faster. so.. felt like all dressed up but no where to go. *apa ni???*

anyway, i'm in the comfort of my condo now. the sky is abit dark and i think it will most likely rain.

so tonight is the final of Astro Battle Ground at Ruums KL. Been watching it on an off.. hope i get to watch it tonight. *hehe* my hunch on whos the winner? The one who will take home Rm25,000 woeth of moolah? hmm.. most prolly racken force. I like them. Not as in crazy over them, but one cant deny that they do look very comfortable on screen, and very entertaining. Whether can they dance or not, i guess its pretty obvious since all are from So You Think You Can Dance. But i would like to see the underdogs win tho. CReate some elements of surprise. So, Twister ET, I wish you both all the best. (Altho its like 99.9% that they will never know this, but.. just for fun :P)
CID Crew from our university will be perfoming in the finals too! Cant wait to see them dance! They have definately improved alot and my.. from what i heard they have alot of fans and supporters (Moi included) So.. all the best to them too! Have a great show and a great night, and of course have fun dancing!!!

Tonight is also Jolin's Concert at Genting! Din went, cuz im not a big fan of hers, but .. she's alright. (some of my girlfriends are her fans.. so..)

If i'm not mistaken, there will be two very big matches going on. I guess since the placement is so ngam Chelsea vs Arsenal, and M.U vs Liverpool.. they decided to make it big. hehe
There will be this celebration at Sunway Lagoon too. Don ask me about the details, as i dont know. hehe. Heard it over the radio that some guy will be coming too.. hailed as the ryan giggs before ryan giggs was even ryan giggs! hmm..
Will mostly watch it tomorrow night as i got an M.U fan with me. hehe
so.. gLORY GLORY MAN United!!!!~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ hehe.. wth.

alright then. im tired. im hungry. and i havent bath. Before i go.. have a look at some of these crazy thoughts. something to cheer up your saturday. =) Till then, have a great weekend.

1. Why did Sally sell seashells on the seashore when you can just pick them up anyway?

2. Why is it that if someone yells "duck" they are helping you, but if they yell "chicken" they are insulting you?

3. Why does someone believe you when you say there are four billion stars, but check when you say the paint is wet?

4. Why when people ask you "what three things would you bring with you on a desert island?" no one ever replies, "A BOAT"

5. How does Freddy Kruger wipe his butt?

6. Why do we say we're head over heels when we're happy? Isn't that the way we normally are?

7. How's come people tell you to stay a kid for as long as you can. Yet the moment you do anything childish or immature they tell you to grow up.

rating on i am legend--> 8.5857463847329 / 10

remind me why am i here again?

the 4th time of the day.. pretty impressive i would say.. *hehe*

oh ok.. i wanted to tell you about the movie i went and watched in the afternoon

no worries, am not giving you spoilers

heck, im too lazy to blog on the plots and endings anyways

one word only---> it was gooooooooooooooood.

at least i like it.

so stop being a picky and go watch it!! *hehe*

you wont regret it i am positively sure.

im not revealing any hints of the story..

so you can go with a curious yet peaceful mind,

knowing it will be a good movie.

more than worth it with our student rate of RM7 only. *student id rocks!*

hehe..

ooo and btw.. will smith looks absolutely deliciousss~

till then.

have a good night y'all. *bear hug*

blogthings? i like you. =)

came across this site called www.blogthings.com, and wippie! got meself occupied with some of these veli interesting quizzes... quite true to a certain extend.. i do have reservations about me not bein a good cook and stupid tho. *scoffs* how could i not be a good cook? ..
so take a look at these.. or dont bother at all.. either way, i'm pretty sure u will.. hehe..

Guys Like That You're Sensitive

And not in that "cry at a drop of a hat" sort of way You just get most guys - even if you're not trying to Guys find it is easy to confide in you and tell you their secrets No wonder you tend to get close quickly in relationships!

What Do Guys Like About You?

There's a Chance You Could Be Violent

Overall, you're a pretty chill person - and you have a good handle on your emotions. Sometimes your anger gets the best of you, and end up regretting how you act. Try to curb your temper more often. It only has to get out of control once to do some damage.

Could You Be Violent?

Your Relationship is Still Building Strength

You're relationship is fairly strong, but you're still working on making things solid. Make sure you're both treating each other with kindness and respect, even when things aren't going well.

How Strong Is Your Relationship With Your Guy?

You Are 44% Shy

Although you live a pretty normal life, you tend to be a fairly shy person. Many situations make you feel uncomfortable, and you sometimes find your shyness hindering your life.

How Shy Are You?

You Are 58% Grown Up, 42% Kid

You've grown up a good bit, but you still have a way to go before you're emotionally mature. You have the skills to control your emotions, you just have to use them.

How Emotionally Mature Are You?

You Have Many Alpha Tendencies

You're not a total alpha female, but you certainly know how to - and like to - get your way. You're forceful without being intimidating. You're confident without being vain. A perfect mix.

Are You an Alpha Female?

You Are Not a Cook

You know cooking isn't for you, and you wouldn't even consider trying to make a homecooked meal. And this is a very good thing. You've saved all your friends and family from unintentional food poisoning!

Are You A Good Cook?

You Are the Ego

You take a balanced approach to your life. You definitely aren't afraid to act out on your desires - even crazy ones. But you usually think first. Morals drive you as much as hedonism does. You've been able to live a life of pleasure... without living a life of excess.

Are You Id, Ego, or Superego?

You're Pretty Stupid

You got 3/10 questions right! It's probably time to get your head examined. You hardly know left from right.

Are You Stupid?

You Are a White Wine Woman

Breezy and casual, you know how to have fun when you're drinking. And even though you can kick back with a few drinks, you never let things get out of hand. Alcohol is not a social lubricant for you... it just enhances your already sparkling personality. You prefer to date a man who is optimistic, friendly, and funny.

What Kind of Drinking Woman Are You?

You Are a Mai Tai

You aren't a big drinker, but you'll drink if the atmosphere is festive. And when you're drunk, watch out! You're easily carried away.

What Mixed Drink Are You?

You Are 68% Happy

You are a very happy person. Generally, you feel content and that all is right with the world. Occasionally, you have a down day - but you have the ability to pick yourself right back up.

How Happy Are You?

*the end*

feel like taking one already? *hehe*

dark and cloudy.

The sky is dark, cloudy with the occasionally thunder. Reflects how i feel. Dark. Moody. Thunder as in feel like about to burst out.

*edited*

This is my life. I take the risks. I call the shots. I bear the consequences.

All i need is support and trust. And some love, of course.

Haiz, i called to chat and i end up feeling the way i am. Oh well, at least ethics turn out fine. =)

Im off to bath. Wash the heat away from me. panassss~

I am legend. Here i come~~~

yes, i dont sleep.

the blog is re-vamp. yes, again.. dont go -.-?? on me.. cant help it okayy~ its 4.55am approximately 4 hours to go before the ethics paper *ughh* had to de-stress. that bloody cup of coffee is to be blamed! *grunts* but why in the world did i had it in the first place?? *smacks head*

ok.. so i managed to gobble up 9 filled chapters of ethics in a day. to what extend i could vomit it out back later remains unknown. so if u happen to see me tomoro with my head hanging lose, you know what happened. ethics is just so.. erm.. ethical? hehe...

anyway, this is a completely meaningless blog i tell you, as i do not have anything to say. i'm mentally drained from studying the whole (i havent step out at all), my head feels heavier than my body and your body add up together (like real,), my mind tells me to sleep but my body cant or should i say cannot?, well.. erm.. wheree was i ?... *blackout*

so at the physical state i am now, i think i am drained. sucked out of all energy or the slightest sign of life.

so off to bed i go to salvage anythings thats left of me.

To all thats sitting for the ethics paper tomoro i wish me and you GOOD LUCK AND ALL THE BEST.

To the lead lecturer who did not give out any tips whatsoever- i dont like u. for now.. hehe

till then..

What if..

if u were an animal, what would you be?

hmm.. interesting question eh?
this question just pop-ed out of nowhere...

i guess if i were to be an animal (if i really really have to be one la-h)
i'd be a dog.

More specifically, a Shih Tzu.

Just coz its simply irresistably cute. PLus, you know what they say

about man's best friend? Yes, you got it right if "dog" appears tru your mind.

Well, i was thinking,

if i couldnt be a human, at least be something that will be
loved, fed, taken care of and close to human. ^^

I asked this question to SW too.. he say he will be a tapir.
And i was like -.-??

Why on earth tapir???
He say coz they are like very few in numbers and about to be extinct.

Hmm.. i dunno.. try and take a look at both pics below.
Would you rather be a cute shih tzu dog or a black and white animal with a weird nose, but quite a cute ass?

poem sharing day!

The Truth About Drink Driving

I read this in the paper,
And it really made me think;
That a quarter of all road accidents
Can be blamed... directly... on drink.

Now statistics, they tell you, will never lie,
But be wary of how they're used;
You need your wits about you,
It's easy to get confused.

If a quarter of accidents are had by drunks,
Then sober people have all the rest;
That's 75% if I'm not mistaken,
... (My maths never were the best).

But I'm not entirely stupid,
And I plan to stay alive;
So I'm gonna start driving drunk,
I'm three times more likely to survive.

Copyright; Ian Mackay - May 1995

i thought it was cool so i came up with this..

This poem you see,
this one right above,
i googled it from the internet,
cuz i suddenly feel like becoming a poet
but as you can see ,
if you can see what i can see,
becoming a poet, i shall never be,
anyway anyhow, back to the story,
i am not encouraging drink drinking, so please don't sue me,
drinking and driving is never the best combo for you and me,
so before you do it
please think carefully
the poem above titled" the truth about driving" is not dependable you see,
cuz i got it from a site named for the lunatic and crazy!

midnight creepy crawlie.

its exactly 1.07 am and here i am.. blogging.

whenever exams are near ANYTHING is better, anything except studying.

watched this Japanese drama Jotei (smtg on night club hostess)
and i tot it was like superb.
altho on normal days.. i would have dismiss it because i dont normally watch Japanese.
but i exhausted all my tvb, prison break n heroes till i hv none left.


surf the net aimlessly (bsc i finish checking everything)
and it felt very comforting.

the plain sight of watching the sky or clouds or just sit down n not move seems
like an interesting to do.

Have you ever felt this way?

The thought of having to pick up that very heavy few pages of slide notes
or the intimidating looking textbook
is enough to make you sleepy just thinking of it.
let alone actually reading it.

This is creepy..

Not very healthy i would say. Not for a final year final sem student.

Arghh.. i gotta do something. Anything! To get me out of this lazy bimbo attitude of mine.

Lord i'm doing, all i can,
To be a better student~~~

Did i just sang that? *gulps*

mes.s.y

its been raining the whole day.. n yes the weather is jus purr-fect. =) i just wrote this rather messy, negativity surrounded, whinny complaning blog in the afternoon. But guess what? i dunno what in the world happened, it deleted itself! maybe its just signs telling me its not appropriate to be posted.

Anyways, its now evening, n i am happy. Sometimes i really wonder how emotional can one person be. That mood comes and go before u realize it was ever there in the first place.

So back to my story.. it was such a nice weather, hence my nap.. when suddenly the phone rang and i was abit grumpy as i hate to drag my sorry ass to take the call. Anyway, i was in for a surprise as it was Deloitte's HR Manager calling to infrom me that they are offering me the job. : ) I was surprise so i told them i needed some time to consider. The very nice HR lady asked is it okay if i reply within 24 hours as they will be off to their annual dinner tomorow afternoon. I of course replied yes, no problem. hehe..

For those who have been in contact with me these few weeks, im sure u guys had enough of my dilemmas. *thanks for always being there* I got another job offer from BDO Binder earlier on and i am very keen on taking it. There are alot of pros n cons to consider.. but imnot gonna write it here as.. im lazy. I think i have already made up my mind. But i requested to consider anyway cuz i tot it might be very impolote to reject it rightaway. Anyway, i will call BDO to confirm tomoro n Deloitte to decline their offer. I like Deloitte no doubt, plus its really near my house.. but everything just seems to point me towards BDO. If you wanna know why in detail, u can ask me anytime. I am just very happy that i got offered the job for both of the interviews i went to. Its been some pretty stressing weeks when i started hunting for jobs at the beginning as i was not getting any reply. However, later on.. everythin fall into place.. Hmm.. must tell myself to be more patient in the future.

PLus im abit worried that i have yet to start my finals preparation. i havent been studyin a wink since i got back. tsk..tsk.. theres just so many things to settle.. i need to settle my room in my condo payments of rentals bills, set a date to move out so de newbie can move in, decide if i wanna move back to my house in pj to stay or move in with my friends cum future colleagues so that we can keep each other company n safe safe ^^ (u noe la.. crime rate veli high.. dangerous to go back home alone, especially if u have to ot!), plan my trips (malacca, langkawi, class trip etc) plus mua's birthday is comingg *hint* *hint* hehe Luna Bar.. i smell you~~~ plus my very last minute shopping for formals cuz i oni have like 2 sets (very de kasihan..) n not to forget i have to finish everything asap cuz im starting work like 2nd of January??!!!@!
Lord.. save me...

So here i am.. stil blogging about it when i should be studyin instead. But even if i wanted to start now, i cant.. cuz its dinner time. =P

My life is just so so so messy now. But its messy for the better. So off to dinner i go.

Bubbyee.

3/12/07

i'm working towards you. Closer from where i've started. Chasing after you. I'm letting go all i have ever hold on to. Chasing after you. I'm running towards you, but i'm not quite sure where to go or where i'll end up to. But still, i'm chasing after you.

I'm standing here, solid as ever. Will not budge, will not give up on u, until you make me move. Please forgive me for all i'm lacking. I might be completely imcomplete, but just give me a few years. I'll claim you. For now, i'm still chasing after you.

Theres nothing else to lose. I just hope you noe, you are so hard to reach. I keep my eyes on you, never letting go. But ppl are pulling me sideways, shoving me with others when all i wanted was you. They think they know whats best for me. But only i can be the judge of it. So what say me? I say im willing to try and take the risk. I rather regret doing it than to regret never knowing how the ending will be just because i didnt give it a try.

I'm really just hanging by a moment. BUt i'm still closer from where i've started. I am still chasing after you.

Once i've set my mind on something. It takes alot to make me change. Same goes here. Gimme 3 years min. I will get u. Pass with the first attempt. This is what i wish for. No matter what others try to say, bout how i dont quite fit the mold, i will prove them wrong. Why ever give someone whos trying her best a hard time? Is it ever appropriate to break a young soul spirit just so u get the benefit?

I'm beginning to fear human. I fear their ruthlessness. I fear how superficial they can be. I fear how i could not differentiate when they r kind, cruel or cruel to be kind. I fear how unreal some might be. I fear how some could try and manipulate ur mind telling u stuff to make u doubt urself. I fear for them.

A simple quest to work towards what u wish for. How could it get so tangled and complicated?

And i feel so sorry that i feel sorry for myself. sorry because i did not haven enough faith to belive in myself. Sorry because i fell for it. I got affected by it. Sorry because i felt sorry for myself one moment when i should have been happy and feel blessed instead.

Opportunity like this dont happen very often. Once let go, there might never be a second try.

Just so i know, i am stil chasing after it. I havent let go.

Tonite, i dont want the world to see me, because i dont think that they'll understand. When everything is made to be broken, i just want you to know who i am. I cant stop the tears that aint falling. But please see the fire burning in me and the moment of truth that shines tru my eyes.

woke up this morning and found myself emo.

im thinking that once i get back to sg long.. time will pass by so fast, that b4 i cud even say cheese, BAM! its 19th. the last day of exam = last day of uni life. ever.

i noe ive been bloggin alot about how its last n etc.. but i just cant get it off my mind..

its beginning to hit me that everything i hold to heart so dearly, i will have to let go.

starting work so early so solely my decision and im beginning to question myself, might it be too early?

i will only have about 2 weeks shy for holidays. minus the days taken to pack n move out of my condo..

i dare not think more.

im just a lil sad. thats all.. its really coming to an end.

blog designer wannabe. take 2.

u noe wut? i'm wondering where this sudden blog-ga-frenzy came from.

3 postings in a day? update of layouts each time? man.. shud i start to worry? its.. so .. so unlike me. But anyways, i happen to lurve my blog's new hairdo (yep, thats wut i call it).

Pon and Zi, they r so cuteee i could almost eat them! (haha, just kidding.. relax.. pon and zi's hardcore fans..) For those who dun reli know who they are.. Pon and Zi are these two little very cute emo creatures. one is blue the other is yellow. i got one of them featured in my blog.. the one with the *smootch smootch* I cant differentiate which is pon and which is zi so.. lets just call mine ponzi. ^^ Cute arent they. I f u tell me u cud resist them.. u r so not my friend. (haha kidding.. kiddign.) But like them will you. seriously.

oKLA.. i think i shall not make any changes to my blog for the time being.. cuz i realize that all of a sudden i keep changing n changing them,. if i could, which i knew i would, i might even change it every hour or so! >.<>for the moment. But.. a fren of mine mentioned its too white... hmm.. shall i....? haha just kidding!

Erm.. if u've bear with me and read till this stage. ok ok! fine! i admit!I'm bored tonight. or should i say i was bored the whole day~ *blush* *blush*

Enuf of crapping d. Off i go... whispers to herself--->time to change friendster layout.... hehe..

... grrr..

omg omg! i just realized that all my pics gone d!!!!

blog designer wannabe.

i'm back! i noe wut i say my bout last blog postings and all.. but hey.. i'm back at pj.. so its not reli counted.

so.. back to the reason of this posting.. wey wey people.. noticed anything different? ... or u dont notice anything different? okies.. okies.. i give in. i bee-yoo-ti-fied my blogggg~ like it?

i heart it so! i totally luv those cute little polar bears.. so white.. so huggable.. n i love this new set of smilies i got. suddenly feel so pro.. i learn it all by myself kay.. so totally lurve how my blog looks now.. wut do u think?

what got me into changing the appearance of my blog was that i find it rather dull .. after facing it for so long.. and i came across some articles that said that smilies r supposed to make the blog readers smile wen they read ur blog. like they get to noe how u feel.. so guys, feeling happier already?

anyway, i'm back to pj for the weekend.. but will come back to sg long on sunday. study weeks are usually spent in sg long as.. theres just too much distraction i.e the tv astro is like practically calling my name. i swear its truee~ plus, i wanna spend more time there.. bau bau sikit the sg long smell.. eat more of the food.. walk more tru de sands.. u noe wut i mean.

my exam schedule is on 12, 14 and 19. so .. i guess i should start preparing now. i intend to remain in first class, and i really hope i will. *toes and fingers crossed* so i guess i'll start preparing my schedule.. i wanna mk it flat this time around.

my interview wit BDO turn out fine the other day. tq to those who wished me luck. i guess it really works! =) if everything goes well, i will start work on the 2nd of January. i noe.. abit like very de early.. but its ok. the early bird catches de biggie worm (hopefully).. but actually i just wanted to start early cuz i noe i need to work very very hard. ppl put in 100% i will nd to give 201% just to be the same or better than them! so... cheers to the marketing gal venturing into the accounting world! (yes.. i noe.. its not exactly my field, so sue me )

i also want to take this opportunity to thank everyone who has helped me and encouraged me all the while especially SW for driving me to all my interviews and waited long hours for me. u saw me tru thick and thin.. all my muka gelabah and nervous all u see ady.

And also to Ah Joo, tq very very much for everything u have done. ur reli very very--->

Dats all for now.. am sleepy. will continue later.. if i got anything interesting to post about. for now.. enjoy my blog's new look k? *bangga nyer*

MUAKS!

emo nyer.......

sitting in front of my pc.. at one of the many usual nights i have in my cozy flora green condo.
*sigh* now how many more of these nights will i still have to enjoy? tomoro is the last day of uni life. not exactly last as we stil hv our study weeks n exams.. but wut i mean is that i will no longer attend tutorials and classes and lectures etc.. it didnt occur to me that everything is reli coming to an end up till toay when i suddenly realize my friends' msn nics.. most of those who is like me , graduatin soon.. spoke of how much they will miss it and the last of everything and all. not to mention friends who sms me asking how i feel now that it is the last week. haiz* thanks guys for bringing out the emo-side of me. I tot i was ok, but i guess am not.

It just occur to me that i will no longer nd to drag myself to lectures or tutorials. no more assignments. no more being so care free that wenever we feel like goin out or to the movies v can do so. more of formal wears and lesser casual clothes. more responsibilities and lesser i-do-wut-i want-when- i-want-to. i cant like hey,dont feel like goin class today.. so dun go lor.. working just aint gonna accomodate that. n i guess no mroe living under the safe and warm umbrella of protection from the family.. and out to the "wilderness". dun feel quite ready to face all that and i guess many in the same position as i feel the same. so i guess the feeling is mutual.

I'm really goin to miss this place alot. I can imagine me coming back here every once in a while.. jus to breathe the air. When i left KTAR 2 years back.. i did the same. I go back whwenver possible.. drive tru the usual place i used to go, walk along the streets my friends and i used to walk, go back to the same stall we so often hang around.. but it didnt feel the same. Maybe cuz i knew that i dun belong there anymore. So, the first few months i went back more often, and as time goes by, the visits become fewer.. and fewer. But whenever i go back to Setapak, a certain feeling of familiarness and fondness still embrace me. and whenever i see those KTAR students .. i feel like one of them. So i guess.. when i leave UTAR, i will feel the same too. haiz* Am not ready to go~`

Everythins about to change. Haiz. I will miss all the great people. All my hangout buddies. wACKY Classmates. SRC. Everything. Some might go back to hometown. So, how am i gonna c u guys anymore?? *sobs* So i hope more will find work in KL la okie.. Dun go too far~ ^^
All the memories, all the friendships, ... i duwan to let go. T.T

hAIZ.. writ till here.. i suddenly dun feel like writing anymore. Words just aint enuf to fully xpress how i feel deep inside. But never forget that i do care.

Hugs. This might be one of the last blog posting i do in Sg Long Flora Green Condo Block C 12 Floor.

i feel like crying. damn. i'm weak.

the end of a beginning of and end.

Its been a while since i last wrote anything. Dun get me wrong.. i have yet to given up on my blog. Just that many things are running tru my mind.. i tried to plan, an d whenever i thought i got it all figured out... new things emerged and the plan goes haywire yet again. and again.

Week 7 of the last semester. The last of the very last. I still remember the first time i reach here. Din like it. BUt now, after 2 years. I heart it so. Learn so many new things, gain so much experience, things that i might not have gotten had i choose the other path and met so many great ppl. Some of whom hv already become like peanut butter and jelly in my life. I dun want my uni life to end, but end is inevitable. So cheers for a new beginning? maybe. talking bout new beginning.....

i'm talking a bold step out of my normal path. thankyou to those who ask me to step back to my original path, u guys make me realize that i reli want this path cuz im strong enuff to not being influenced by the words said. and thank you to those who have encouraged me. Thank you for believing in me. it reli fuel me up. the fire is burningg~~ as u can see.. ^^ thank you to those who hv helped me and guide me and shared alot of ur opinions and thoughts, i reli appreciate it. no matter i get it or not, u can expect a meal from me. =)

so off i go to get ready b4 3pm. the time has come. the long wait of 6 days since i last received the call. shud i say some magic words to further incrase my chances?? err.. how bout mani mani hom??? not quite right.. em... aza aza fighting! uish.. thats korean. i guess a simply do my very best will do.

Its not easy to taking my problems one at a time when they refuse to get in line. As such, a door is open for me, I go in and i'm faced with hundreds of closed doors. BUt whenever the world says "Give Up" I could almost hear Hope saying " Try it one more time".

By me, for me.

in the mirror i see,
reflection of a girl or a lady?,
working her ways through the rough and unforgiving sea,
stumbling once, falling twice but never giving up, you see,
its never easy, and easy it never will,
but underneath that fragile heart, its a will as strong as steel.

Just one of my amateur attempt at writing a poem. To the friend who wrote a poem about me for me in less than 5 minutes, i'm inspired by you. The lovely poem you showed me, the one you wrote but never had the chance to give it to the one that matters, was the sweetest poem i have ever read. both of the poems written by you was filled with originality that is so you. =) keep it up!

Happy 50th Merdeka Day!!!!!

Putrajaya sky was beautiful in all its glory last night during Merdeka Day. As the clock strucks 12, amazing displays of fireworks left us all in awe. But as we, like the majority of the crowd was admiring the fireworks, one man, who came with his wife, mother and his army of kids stood out from the rest of us. He shouted Merdeka! while proudly lifting the Malaysian flag that he brought along. He kept shouting but i guessed he got a little frustrated as no one in the crowd followed him. then, what he said next somehow made me felt ashame of myself. He said and i translated " Today is our independence day, dont tell me u guys watch the fireworks till you fail to remember this?" He said this in an almost jokingly way (probably to avoid getting beat up later..) but who could blame him? There were no countdowns whatsoever as everyone was busy anticipating the fireworks instead of counting down to Merdeka, there were no proud cries of Merdeka! Merdeka! Merdeka! and i think, there were no moments of reflecting how fortunate we are today. it made me think that if Malaysia is a human being, he/she would have been upset as her/his birthday was forgotten.

i'm not saying that only by shoutin Merdeka! or waving the flag on Merdeka alone means we love our country and all, but what that man said, somehow hit me right on the spot! i felt embarrass deep down inside because deny it i may, but i and i think most of the people watching fireworks that night, might have forgotten or prolly gotten our priorities all wrong. What the heck, its our 50th Independece Day and i'm watching a firework display by not even our Malaysian team,but Team Japan (which by the way is really good. i think they will even win) i might have felt better if i spent the night, with a couple of friends in a mamak waiting for countdown and....10..9..8...3..2..1.. MERDEKA!!!!!!! u noe. give a moment of reflection but then again.. would i? ( erm.. the fireworks was really really awesome..) omg.. am i contradicting myself? but then again, as i'm writing this thing... i somehow realize that no matter how we celebrated Merdeka, regardless of countdowns or none, as long as we give a moment to ourselves and wish our country Happy 50th Merdeka, Malaysia in our hearts.. i , in all ways, feels that it is more than enough.

As i'm busily terrorizing my key board typing this, i suddenly remember this article i read about one author commenting on how much have our country have truly changed since half a decade of our independence day. He was commenting on how much we are still lacking and if we could really be proud and still celebrate our Independence day despite our shortcomings? i for one have no hard feelings whatsoever as i feel that everyone has the freedom of speech, that is just his point of view and its good to question, and not just blindly comply. but, allow me to give my 2 cents worth, i believe that in all our shortcomings, things that we have yet to achieve and things that we are still weak at,By all means, right, left, front and back, we deserve this 50th Merdeka! Malaysia deserved to be celebrated. WE deserved to feel proud of our country, our homeland. Without the past, there will be no future. So screw those who feels that being Malaysian is not enough and that their homeland is always not good enough. i am a true believer of constructive comments and the continuous passion for improvements but not destructive and negative inflicted comments said to make us feel any lesser about what we are and where we come from.

The same goes to those who feels that our uni is not good enough or are ashamed of admiting or telling others where we come from. I simply could not comprehend why some would spend the time to post stuff online such as their dissatisfaction over the Corporate MOnday thingy. frankly speaking, i am not all that excited about it as well cuz it gets abit inconvenient wearing high heels, climbing up the stairs up till 5th floor and tryin to look all professional and nice at the same time. not to mention the frustration of not knowing what to wear or simply wearing the same formal every monday as our formal collections are still very limited. but in light of all this, i wonder, if its not bad and knowing the fact we could not change it, why not? is it worth it spreading negative comments about this? i have my own share of monday blues, not wanting to go uni cuz have to wear formal... but ... yet again... let us look at it as a practice of getting some use to wearing formal for our working lives. :) and btw.. by gradually increasing our formals now, it'll save us the heartache of having to forkout a huge amount of money later when we work... =P After all .. its just 1 day, and like what they say ''What dont kill us, only make us stronger".
(the writer is trying to convince, brainwash, psycho herself into accepting it too... ^^)

i in my own world and mind have no idea what went into me tonight. forgive me for my boldness(if any) and if i had directly or indirectly offend anyone (if any).. cuz.. its just my 2 cents worth. you can take it, or leave, which ever way suits..;)

1 and a half hour more till OUr Merdeka Day is over. BUt then again.,.. like what they say for Valentines, Mothers Day and Fathers Day and etc... dont just express your love that day only. that goes to today as well....

Happy 50th Merdeka Malaysia! A Proud Malaysian at heart. Always will be.

Proud to be a Utarian. This is where i obtained my tertiary education, met great ppl (u noe who u r) have tons of unforgettable memories and my last stop in my academic journey. (not planning on MBA btw...)

With this, Cheers~ Never be afraid of who you are and where you come from. :)

mr .sun taking a break..

its 11.25 now.. class at 12.
but the sky is getting darker by the minute here in sg.long..
the winds are like howling (no joke).. the clouds as daRK as charcoal & heavy as godzilla.. (okok abit exxagerating).. but the thing is..under these circumstances.. should i attend my class?
hmm.. altho my uni is just acrosss my condo... but.. raining wo...cold blowing wind.. not to mention there are a few coconut trees .. wut happens if suddenly the wind blow too hard and 1 co-co-nut drop n hit my head!!?? aih.. find excuses u may, but u stil have to go cuz ur classmates' notes are with u! doink! =.=""

dragging her feet away...

omg! sorry amigo~~

just got back from class.. n in a mist of chatting wit a fren in msn..
this fren, LD.. always say i go back pj nvr call ... sigh.. sobz* but forget d.. who come back from pj all the way, wake up early morning go teman dia see shrek?? dia lupa....
another fren S pulak thinks that im running away (like a refugee) & nvr see them ever again.. =.=" .. but the truth is.. fault lies on me too la.. sigh.. wut to do.. this blur gal have to study ma... n wut to do.. live so far away from u all... sobs** miss all u guys from my secondary school.. too many memories, too many good days , n some bad days.. but.. those were my golden days.. ^^ i promise x3 to meet u guys more often k? lunch on me.. maggi goreng tak mau maggi!! =P
despite LD being abit ungrateful.. but okla.. forgive u.. cuz u reminded me about Kit Soon a.k.a Kitty coming back to Malaysia d!! tqtq..

it happens that a close friend of mine just got back from UK.. and mean old me forgot about it!! Kitty told me about it last month i guess.. im so sorry.. in a midst of eveyrthing.. i totally forgotten about it! but.. kita suda lama kawan... im sure Kitty wont mind... hor?
so.. just in case u happen to read this.. my thousand apologies. *sowee*
will make it up to u wen i get back.

minta maaf banyak banyak... dun le angry me .. hehe... i don mean to not call.. im just a little late =)))))

Ps: another close friend of mine is coming back from Taiwan on Sept 1!! for those kind souls.. do remind me if i forget... (paiseh..)

Ps2: Read an article from frester.. dunnoe believable or not. but i tend to believe it.. it seems that on 27 August 2007, at approximatley 12.30am.. we can see 2 full moons in our sky!! it is said that Planet Mars will be within 34.65M miles from Earth!! so.. dun miss it as nobody alive today will ever be able to witness this in future as the next time this phenomenon will happen again is in yr 2287!! hmm.. i plan to watch it d.. so u guys.. if u do rmb about it.. drop me an sms or smtg... so we can watch it together gether.. (n in case i forget of cuz... hehe)

Ps3: watching another tvb series called Heart of Greed.. so far so gud.. about bao yu & some family conflicts wan.. heheh will update u guys about it.. ^^ n still waiting for the release of prison break n heroes of cuz... muakakaka....

Ps4: muakaka.. did anyone watched SummerLive Concert last Sat? isit me or is JJ looking better (+ more cute) & the F.I.R gal getting prettier? They both looked great that nite! at least for me.. they do =)

Ps5: As for AstroTalentQuest, im glad Xiao Yan got the third place n the audience choice award. A deserving wion for her. Congrats* . As for the champion.. i'd still prefer the 2nd place guy as compared to zAC. But they were both good! i dun normally fancy S.H.E that much.. but that nite.. when they sang.. dunno y suddenly i feel like hey, these gals are gooood! espcially Ella!

hmm.. the writer seem to be heading towards JJ,Ella & F.I.R.... not her usual cup of tea.. but.. changes are good (so they say)..

ok, signing off for now.. u guys have a great day!! *muackies*

wan wut.. no wut..(translate to cantonese)

dinner at sky tonite...
order claypot yee mee.. dun hv..
order fish fillet rice.. oso dun hv...
end up wit pan mee.. tomoro pasar malam.. will oso eat pan mee.. sooner or later.. bcome pan mee!!! @@
reminds me of 1 time in mamak..
lychee ais.. tada...
sprite.. tada....
teh ais.. tada...
tosai? pun tada...
apa ada??? =.="

quite happy today.. cuz moi's blog just 1 day old.. but a few ppl d read it.. =)
tq for de welcome wishes! fu-yohh.. am a blogger now.. sounds cool.. (-.-)""

My First Post

Bonjour! (Hello in French)
this is my 2nd attempt at bela-ing a blog. my first blog had a short-but-well-lived life.. ^^
this time around, i reli reli hope to maintain it! okla.. will put it in my 2008 resolution liao.
well.. i woke up this morning at 9 plus ( woke up early despite knowing am skipping lecture at 10) went on9 n wala~ saw ah joo's blog... n it suddenly strucked me that i feel like having 1 too! *hehe* so.. credits to ah joo for inspiring me unknowingly..
for days n weeks n yrs to come.. i'll (hopefuly) keep this blog as alive & updated as possible!
Y3 s2 is RELI taking a toll at my health condition. been down for a week. but am gud now. life was hectic for the past few weeks(mid terms, presentations, assi n all..).. but its beginning to slow down now.
my thesis presentation is on AUG 18!! (gosh*) wish me luck! after this.. can finally phew*.. n take some deserving break time. hehe.. in case ur curious bout wut i did during my 1 week K.O time.. these are the breakdown of my "activities"..

-went bac to pj on Fri.. k.o till u gimme "bao yu" also will taste like tissue to me.. c doc.. got myself a lovely injection as a souvenir.

-sleep, rest, astro ( watched practically every programme till astro ria oso i tak lepaskannya..)

- went to sjmc cuz my condition got worse.. waited for hrs.. n see this Dr.C (not gonna name him here, after kena sue n u hv to visit me in jail) turned out.. dat we saw the wrong doc.. n this Dr.C referred me to another doc. he din do anything.. the whole process took just a miserable 3 minute n guess wut??!!! he got the cheek to charge us RM147!! thats money gone down the drain for ntg.. it made me think that are doctors nowdays reli into saving lives or are they simply into making cold heartless cash? taking advantage of sick ppl who r not in their means to defend themselves. if he had say sorry, this is not my area but ill refer u to another doc more specialize in this (n charge me a little) i would say he's an honest and good doctor! but RM 147? .. u be my judge..

- went to clinic for the 3rd time.. =.=" y is this happening.. only got better after my fourth visit n another souvenir injection. had high fever for days, throat infection, couple of other infections, was suspected for dengue, went in n out of clinics, ran blood test etc.. all in all.. its been a rough week. am glad to still be here.

-finally replied sms-es.. tq all for sms-ing me... sorry for replying late.. but I'M OK NOWWW~~~~~~~~ wheee..... damn happy! it reli felt good to be healthy. muacks! hugs! tq for all ur sms-es, hugs, get well wishes, jokes to make me happy, tq to my group for backing me up for presentations that i hv missed, & HUGGSSSS u guys sms-es did make me feel better!

- recovering.. mum bought this korean series "Lovers in Prague". i spend my remainding days watching it n watching it non-stop. so ... mum & daughter end up glue-stick to the korean movie. bro wanna watch other programme? CANNOT! haha... btw.. this show is superbly damn nice.. its gonna be aired soon on AEC every Mon-Fri at 9pm i tink.. hehe (promo a bit ma)
i rate this series 9/10!!!! loved it! finished the whole series in just 3 days!! hehe.. so.. dun miss it!

- havent been on9 for sometime.. for those who reliazed my dissappearance (hehe).. now u know wut happened... =)

dats about all i did.. not much.. but.. okla hor... ^^.. am back in sg long now.. life resume back to normal. =)

its nearly 1pm now.. have TB tutorial at 2pm.. will go this time (hehe)...

au revoir n dun miss me too much ya~ haha...

ps: the writer apologize for any grammar error n the inconsistent mixture of spanish n french expressions.. the writer felt that it looked sophisticated (hehe*) .

ps1: the writer tried uploading more pics but kanasai! all pics din turned out the way its supposed to. either streched too big or too small.. =.=" . the writer will seeks more professional bloggers pertaining this matter.

ps2: the writer dunnoe why.. but seem to find it hard to stop typing n end the post short n sweet.. the writer was eek...! wei! hey!! ( carried away from the computer.....)