In 2008..

1. Graduated from Universiti Tunku Abdul Rahman with a Bachelor of Marketing (1st Class Honours), but was stupid enough to leave my card/chip (wutever) that contains my name, graduation picture everything on my chair. Ended up walking down to receive my scroll without having my name called out, picture was not shown on screen but loooking back now.. its funny. It wasn't at that time though..thank you coursemates+partners in crime for comforting me. teehehe.. almost broke into tears. 2 years of slaving through uni and i left that bloody card on that bloody chair. argh. still feeling a bit bitter now. Another thing... to the management if you ever read this.. it would be better if the interviews with press to be conducted maybe 15 minutes AFTER the graduation. Else, if you make it DIRECTLY after the convocation.. poor peanuts like me will miss taking a full graduation picture with all her coursemates. thank you very much. *its quite obvious that i was and still am upset over this* teehehe..

2. Got my first job as an auditor. Got another offer to work with IBM 2 months later. Stayed with IBM for about 6 months till i got myself another offer to work with RHB and 4 months later ..i still am with RHB (this have got nothing to do with the 2 year bond i got myself in.. teehehe) wink*
I know this dont look quite good cuz it appears as if I'm a job hopper (teehehe) but sometimes, we just gotta keep looking till we find a perfect fit, no?

3. Secured a job with RHB in which i am to undergo a 1 year intensive training under the Management Associate Program (MAP). Met 20 bright, crazy, fun-loving individuals, outstanding in their own ways, which helps spice up our classroom training at Bangi every now and then. I am totally in love with the Nasi Kandar at Nilai and my fingers will remain crossed that our canteen food gets better next year. Underwent and successfully completed the first Retail Banking module. Attached to a branch in Pj New Town, worked with amazing colleagues and saw many different facets of life and interacted with people of all walks of life. Truly an eye opening experience that money cant buy. Sold credit cards, personal financing loans, insurance and every other damn thing for the first time in my life. Was a challenging experience and im glad its over and i wont have to do it again. phew* things you do in training..

4. Bought myself a black Myvi. And i know now how pricey it is to maintain a car. le sigh.. insurance, services, unexpected scratches, you name it..

5. Still did not manage to board a plane and travel overseas.. sigh sigh sigh howcome??

6. Introduced to a friend online and established an unexpectedly strong and lasting friendship.

7. Curled my hair for the first time in my life. (Didnt quite like it tho) So i got it straighten again in June. : )

8. Did a few road trips which i heart so much. Dont get to do it as often as it used to be.. but it was a great time well spent with great company.

9. Found a new-found love + addiction with drinks. *winks*

10. Lose some, gain some. Got my heart broken and still am in the process of mending it. Though it might take longer this time, due to unforeseen circumstances.. but it will happen.

11. Gain alot of new friendship with my days in IBM, some of which became my sisters, brothers, confidant and shoulders to lean on. Never had i expected to find such unconditional and strong lasting relationship in a workplace. For that, i'm truly blessed.

12. Attended my first friend's wedding. Denise if you're reading this.. "My first time give to you liao!!!" and i wish that happiness always find its way to your doorstep.

13. Turned 23 on december 26. Thank you for all the warm wishes be it text, emails, testi, msgs, cards, letters and presents. I love each and every one of it. thank you.

14. Had the toughest time of my life throughout August 2008 till November 2008. Shed the most tears and heart breakingly painful nights imaginable. Not something i would like to highlight in my year 2008 recap, but the fact that i managed to pull myself through , making sure i did not sink in deep self pity or depression- i feel this warrants at least an acknowledgement.

15. Started including dresses in my wardrobe. hehehe.. dresses- why dint i find you earlier??

16. Bought myself a red handphone and a red laptop.

17. Did many spontaneous trips with no prior plannings whatsoever!

Thats it for 2008.

Now bring me 2009!

One of those days..

There were nights when the wind blowing from my ceiling fan felt so cold. And my blue cotton blanket just did not manage to warm me up as it should. With my eyes closed, my body curled up in my blanket side ways struggling to keep me warm, hundreds of random thoughts keep going through my mind and I cant sleep. Yet again those cold lonely nights that i wished was just a phase but it seemed to last longer than i have expected.

Empthy threads of hope , thoughts of chances i've missed , people that i have neglected , feelings i have unintentionally hurt, the confusion and frustration hidden inside a fragile build, feeling so helpless makes me wonder what am I doing or am i heading towards the right direction......

all of a sudden i felt so weaken -emotionally and physically. I felt defeated.

I felt myself drunken by my emotional burden that I failed to cry out for help when I need it the most.

I keep telling myself over and over again that i am better than this.

But life has a mind of its own and most times it will not go our way. No matter how hard we try to mould and craft life, as it is will always take a twisted turn. Whatever you think will happen next, wont. If you think you can predict the future, you're wrong. If you think you've got it bad, be prepared for the worst. And that misunderstandings and feelings of betrayal do crawl into our life at one point of time and the critical moment of it all is how we handle ourselves in those circumstances given the choices we have and the constraints to consider.

But of all these choices I have to make, dilemmas and judgements I have to face , sometimes it makes me feel older than my age. I felt matured in a sense that I have seen the true facts of life that not many 23 year olds have the privilege to see. And in exchange of these privileges were many lonely, confused, troubled and painful hours. I'd wished I never have to experienced it, but if its no longer evitable, I hope to make the most out of it and learn never to make the same mistake again.

I wish to embrace happiness once again and the wisdom to look for it.

Of Hellboy and Jco Donuts

Its always good to hang out with close friends over the weekend , and just chill and have some relaxing fun time. Last Saturday was one of those days that makes me miss uni life even more than I already do. An early sms from Max was just a great way to start my morning.. tsk tsk.. when I did not replied his msg.. he was indeed quick enough to tell Kent that "hey.. this blardy girl might ffk us leh.. " Eh ppl.. common la.. would i do that? *innocent wide eye look*

Anyways, I had a great Saturday, and I wouldnt want to spend it any other way. : ) Kent , Max, Joo and I had well... a very nice lunch over at Manhattan Fish Market, the food was alright.. nothing much to shout about. except for the price.. but our chit chats on how each other's work is getting on, sharig some gossips here and there (yes, guys do gossip!) and practically catching up with each other's life that we have missed so far. Ahh.. bliss.

Next stop, we went and pick up Brian to join us for movie -Hellboy (which btw was goooood) over at Pavillion. Tried to call Hazel darling.. but she was occupied that day. : ( (when am i gonna see you girl?? )

Anyways, I had a really good weekend (yes, i do realise i mentioned it 3 times now, and im gonna mention it again. hehe ) . Im happy that we are all doing very well in our own respoective ways and .. its good to know that we are still the very crazy sarcastic bunch of ppl we were before. I do realise that we dont get to see each other often, but I am deeply touched by the fact that even after few months not meeting, we still feel that we've known each other for ages. : )

Heres some pics.. that i managed to sneakily take. well.. not the 1st of course..

While waiting for the driver and his konco-konco~

The Gardens. somebody has lost ALOT of weight....

But eh.. is that boobies I see there?? >.<"

Me likey this... I can stay in this shop 4eva.. Had they not drag me out.. ish.

Taken infront of Garden Signature. No.. we did not watch our movie there . Blardy RM20 just for a movie?? nah....... Altho a certain some1 was very inclined to.. teehehe..

After the movie at Pavilion, Joo thought of buying some donuts.. buT hell, not only him have that "thought".. so did many others... it was chaotic man.. hungry donut buyers are not to be messed with..hehe..

Future Jco Ambassador. No need pay. Donuts will do. : )

Ahh,.. dont it just makes you happy just by watching this? The funny thing is Joo initially intented to buy 6. But he ended up buying 12! What the We-line-up-so-long-buy-6-only-meh ?? -theory.>.<" Another funny thing is how the guys initially planned to eat those yummy donuts during their yumcha session after fetchin me home.. buthen.. we end up finishing most on our way back home and left only 2 donut survivors!! ehehe..

This is towards the end of the day. on our way to carpark. Due to a personal request by some tai ko who wants to have his picture taken from the back (what? u tink u r chow yun fatt ar?) so he can blog about it.. well.. here you go.. picture as requested. but the extra thing is.. i decided to post it online. : P hehehehehe...

We went out at 11am plus.. and wrap it up around 11 plus pm too. 11-11. phew. tiring man.

On another totally unrelated stuff.. I shall post a pic on how i look like on normal working days.. hehe just to make me happy. : P

Now i'm happy.. teehehe..

Goodnight ya'all. *Huggies*

One buck short

Ever woke up one morning asking yourself this question..
" wtf am I doing?"

Yes.. i have those mornings. In fact it span across not only on mornings, but afternoons and nights as well. Heck, miind as well just say the whole damn day.

Feelings are ridiculously over rated. Shytt i cant even spell ridiculus right if my life depends on it.

Sometimes I take pride in knowing i will always do the right thing, if not fully at least partially. But, lately.. I'm not doing that.

What defines right or wrong becomes so vague that I find myself crossing dangerous paths. Paths that are not meant to be taken at the first place.

Many times in life, when people cant find that one thing that they need in one place, and if they waited long enough and still find that they could not get it from that one place, people will subconsciously try to seek it from others.

Heck, im tired of ambiguity. Tired of living behind a shadow. A shadow that is not mine to begin with.

I've tried to make it work. I tried convincing myself that it is worth it. But everytime I try to get closer I feel your cold shoulders moving farther away from me. Why is it that everytime i want to stay you make me feel as if you dont care. But when ever I want to leave, you will make me want to stay? This is cruelty at its best. For nothing hurts more than a broken heart. Heart that was broken then mend then broken again. It gets weaker every single time which each passing by-pass. Its such a strain to be playing these games constantly. Is it too much to ask for a consistency? People find comfort in the familiar, pattern , routine. But i found none as it feels different every time. Please wake me up to my senses for this either has to continue or it has to stop.

Someone please tell me I'm right in thinking this way...

I have neglected my blog far too long....

And right now.. I dont know where to start..

I dont feel like back logging.. I dont wanna feel. Just move on.

Did you wake up this morningAnd wish this was all just a phase?
Like tomorrow will be better
Ever have those days?
Where you just can’t seem to bring yourself
To stand on your own two feet
To get up and face the world
When your life feels so incomplete?
When I search for some hope
I look up into the skies
But the world is a sweeping sadness
Through my depressed eyes
I study people passing by
They seem to look right through me
No, they take a glance
And ignore the unhappy
Maybe my eyeliner hides my bloodshot eyes?
Maybe my powder hides my tears’ trails?
I take such pride in hiding
And paying attention to little details
Are we all contained In a mask we call a smile?
We’re so used to concealing
That we’ve become so versatile
But still I try to assure myself
That there’s still hope yet
And God knows that in the future
I’ll need all the help I can get
But when I’m feeling down
I’ll sweep my fingertip across my necklace
And feel it’s engraving run through my mind
When a true smile floods my face
I wear my necklace everyday
And use it to guide me whenever I’m pushed and shoved
Because I always need a little reminder
It reads “I am loved”

A fun filled Nite- Good Music, Good Company : )

*burp*

ehem. excus-ey me.. just had a big dinner. me is happy. hehe

I had Monday blues today, well.. who doesn't. Came back to work today and shocked myself with the amount of work I had to follow up cuz yours truly was sick on Friday , thus.. did not turn up for work. Daylights Savings Time has started .. so work is from 7am to 3pm starting today. : )
That means more time in bed for me, and an additional hour to stay awake at night. hehe..

I went to our uni's Musical Nite last Saturday, and I must say, it was a good show. Kudos to the organizing team for a well put show. I enjoyed myself indeed. Going back to uni brings back many fond memories as I recall the time our Talent Nite team was busy going back and forth trying our very best to calculate and execute everything to perfection, hoping to close the margin of errors to a minumum. Ahhh... I miss those times. Those were good times.

I went back that nite, but the feeling was a tad bit different. Maybe because I'm no longer a student, I felt somehow detached. Like I dont belong there anymore. Haiz.. is this feelings normal? And I felt as if I'm older than my age, and that all the mui-muis and di-dis are my sisters and brothers.. come jeje buy you guys some sweet.. haha kidding .. kidding.. Any of you guys still studying and happens to read my blog.. It is all for fun sake. hehe..
But a portion of it is true tho, I felt somehow abit older than them. Abit jealous that they are here enjoying their uni years when mine has just passed. I wish to go back to those times.. but look forward we must.

The main reason of going to the Nite was to show our love and support to our very own Kent who will be ending his emcee-ing journey with this last event. And I could say, you ended it well.
You were at your natural best self and you pulled it through. Not trying too hard nor was it too bland. It was the just right mixture that I personally think you deserve a thumbs up for. Not to forget that you had a very good partner to compliment you. : )

The events day have passed and going back to uni somehow make me feel young again! Happy to see fresh young faces so eager , so enthusiastic, and so full of drive.
This is how it should be..

Life as it is.

Life is not always filled with roses. Life isnt always good. But.. it is worth living.

It is never truly understood until you have been through it. To understand it, people look backwards. Flashback of memories running through your mind. But to live it, there is only one way. Forward.

More often than not, people say that they are unhappy .. but reality is.. happiness is by choice.
Not given, but by choice.

Reality is what it is it is. Not quite a place to be, but there is no escape.


I have a friend. Who has not been at her best lately. But she just want people to know that after the initial depression feeling days... acceptance sunk in. That life, no matter how we try to close our grip of control towards it.. is futile. We may be a perfectionist, but once reality sinks in.. all the perfection and beautiful control.. it is just crap. Just live the life you deserve.

People say you only live once. But I say if you live it well enough, once is more than enough.

I painted a picture perfect painting with a well put frame. But my hand shook, and the brush fell off my hand. The perfect canvas is tainted. But, it is still a good picture. As, I can always pick up the brush and paint me another painting.

Life is never easy. No one says it is.

But what matters most is that at the end of the day, after all the crap that we have to put up with.. we remain still standing.

I never regret of the past. It painted one of the most beautiful days of my life. But like all things that are good, it comes to an end. Cherish and remember the memories. Do justice to all those good times that was well spent.. and move on...

Living somebody else's dream.

Why are we humans prone to pain?

For some reasons, pain comes by more often than pleasure. And the worse thing is, you never see it coming. It just hit right into your heart, suffocate you, intoxicate you and leave you broken. Broken of hope, broken of faith and it leaves you broken enough to make sure you will be in so much pain that it takes a million strength to recover.

But the thing about humans is.. we never learn. Never mind that people tell you it will hurt. Doesnt matter if you have been warned beforehand that it will indeed hurt. But you need to find our for yourself, how much it hurts.

Maybe we like to get hurt. Maybe we have to feel hurt. Feel the pain seeping into your bones that you feel its eating up your organs inside... that every single breathe you take it hurts you like a million needles poking to your veins. Maybe we are created this way. To make us feel real. To make us know that we arent immortals. That life is indeed short.

Sometimes we think that we are doing the right thing, but indeed we are not. We are fooling others just to fool ourselves. And that truely, we are just selfish enough to care only for ourselves and not others. That what we do affects not only ourselves but others. That it all happen like a chain of stories, each interwhine with another that one action you make causes a chain of reaction.

We think too much about what effect that we have on others that we never stop to think, what the hell do I really want instead. We spend our lives living within the boundaries. Boundaries that we drew or those that already exist before we even got there. Living in such constraint that sometimes you feel like letting everything go and live the life you want by crossing that boundary.

But, life is never that simple, for some boundaries are too dangerous to cross.

I never wanted to cause pain. For every pain that i caused, i get back so much more.
If it ever meant anything, I've tried my best. But I'm not doing too good here for i cant seem to find a balance between both sides. I need time to think. Time to convince myself that my choice is right. I dont want to end up chasing after something that is not even there.

I need time to think .

Survey who?

This is the first time i've ever posted a survey in my blog.
There's always a first people say.. But this might be the last. So here goes nothing...


1.Whose picture is it that you keep in your wallet?
I dont have a wallet to begin with..

2. What time do you usually go to bed?
Early.. try waking up at 4.30/5am..

3. What was the last thing you did before filling this survey
Watched Project Runway..

4. Who's the person you're gonna call if you need help?
They'll know when i call them...

5. Who's number on your speed dials?
Dont use speed dials.. I rmb all u numbers pretty well... : P

6. With whom do you wanna be to have fun?
Loved ones.

7. How would you describe yourself?
Harmless unless provoked. : )

8. Who do you hate the most for now?
Hate is such a strong word... well, for the record.. i don have anyone to hate now. hehe

9. When was the first time you slept alone?
Cant rmb.. long time ago.

10. What do you wanna do for now?
Pick up the broken pieces.

11. What could piss you off?
Inconsiderate, bad-mouthing, back stabbing, reckless drivers, impatient pigs, chickens who run when things get bad, or snakes who appear whenever credit is due-tho they dont deserve it... well.. u get what i mean..

12. are you an animal lover?
yes, crabs taste good.

13. Colors that makes you happy
none in particular.i dont need colors to make me happy.. im self contented. *grins*

14. Most fav thing in your room?
i would have to say my bed.

15. What was the last thing you bought for your room?
nothing.

16. Any instruments in your room?
i cant play any... sad.

17. Can you cook?
i can cook up a decent meal.

18. Miss someone?
not at the moment.

19. Plan to buy something?
this is not a question worth asking to a girl. of cuzzzzz we wanna buy something..... pffft!

20. Do you like seafood?
my fav.

21. Breakfast or dinner?
Dinner

22 . What do you usually have for breakfast?
I dont usually take breakfast cuz i cant eat much in the morning..

23. Did you eat breakfast today?
yes.

24. Do u have a laptop?
company's..

25. What is your favourite fastfood?
Mc d.

26. Cats or dogs?
Dogs

27. City or country?
Both

28. How do you prefer to spend your holiday?
Its not so much as how, but i would say is who you get to spend it with.

29. Is kissing normal for your age?
No. kissing makes u pregnant. Hello?? what kinda q is this. im 23. so hell yeah its normal. even babies kiss okay...

30. Do you have your own cell phone?
No, i communicate using Morse code. Thats why my replies are always so slow.


hehe.. survey done! well.. that was fast..

yooohoo!

Hey people..

Its holidayyyyyyy~ read my lips.. H.O.L.I.D.A.Y.S!!

Hehe.. Well.. its Good Friday on Friday (duh) and Easter on Monday.. So am having a long good weekend, and i deserved it. I've worked hard this week, so.. *pats self*

and.. I take back everything i ever say bout my car salesman.. he is in fact...... good !!!
i'm getting my car next week!! can you believe it?? damn fast okie.. and its black.
looks like he manage to live up to all of his promises.. haiz.. i judge him too soon. my bad.
but anyways.. my car will be here next weeeeeeeeeeeeek!!! yippie!

Its Tuesday baby!

*deleted*

Work is fine, altho the workload is neverending and to think I only reached home at 5 and i started at 6am today? But.. all in all, its still good.. trying to catch up as fast as I can.. and man.. looking after an account with about 150++ companies aint easy i tell you. I'll pick up as i go..

Today was our Quarter Lunch as well... so our whole team was treated to a free lunch. hehe.. Its Chris, our big bro's birthday too.. So that calls for a celebration! hehe.. Cant wait for next quarter... : ) and Happy Birthday Chris. I wish you all the happiness in the world and may you have a good life over at Australia soon, and that everything works out just right for you. : )

I'm getting tired.. Its been a long day. Thats all for now... cheers.

Crap.

Ever wonder why those fried, crispy, oily stuffs are just so addictive and yummilicious tasting?
Ugh. Hate it that they are made the way they are. I ate alot of mini hash browns for lunch today, and no.. i'm not ashamed of myself. Well, I should be... but I'm not. Ugh. I feel fat. Wait. Am i fat? ughhh *slaps face* Are you laughing at me..?? Hey.. its my body so I can cry if I want to! So right now.. i'm crying... T_________T. I need to crash diet... asap. Before convo... Well that is like 13 days from now... So how many kgs can one lose in 13 days? I'm getting hysteria....

I blame it on the mags. Pressure to look stick thin cuz thats what the mags are trying to tell young gullible girls like us right.? I mean wtf the models are forever slim without an ounce of fat, and normal poor thing like us are struggling to keep the weight off. And what more.. you guys like thin girls.. right?

Poor girls. You know what.. I'm starting to sound liek a pro feminist here... but hey.. guys have it so much easier alright.. no? Lets see.. guys dont have menstrual cramps, thats the first. No worries about what pain we have to go tru each month. GUys need not get over labor pain. They can just be teary and all happy cradling the newborn after it pop out of women. Guy need not worry about getting fat.. cuz well.. there isn any cuz! In short.. i wanna be a guy. wait.. no.. i dun wanna be a guy.. Guy's range of clothes are so limited k.. and you know whats another thing thats freaking bothering me.. ? Its so hard to buy a guy gifts!!! Ugh.. dont let me get into there..

So anyway.. this is a crappy post.. and being the crappy me i am today.. i'm not even gonna be bothered by it. So.. if anyone post any comment here on anything that even slightly imply that i am fat.. i shall tie your hands up, feed you smelly cockroaches and chuck you into some lice infested island or something.. i mean,,, for real. Do you see me laughing?

Ebiko sushi please, soya, chilli powder and wasabi on the side please..

Politics makes me sick. Really, it does. I mean how bad can it be, you must be thinking.. well.. you need not look further.. you can witness it right at homeland baby..
Sit down, and watch as the ugly gets uglier.. everything unfolding right before your eyes..

Power struggles are so nasty. Its even more frustrating when the so called defeated one couldn’t except the fact that the worse had happened, so shaddap and work on filling the bloody huge ass hole that’s left behind your backyard now. Literally. But the one that was caught off guard with a pleasant surprise aren’t quite ready to step up to the plate. By that I simply mean that they wasn’t expecting it, and thus, wasn’t prepared for it. At least, I feel that way. If only they could all sit down over a cup of coffee and talk. Feel like slapping me to tell that its not even near possible? Haha… But no harm in hoping right..?

I really wish one day will come when Homeland is really mature enough, and the people governing it will see it through that if they sincerely want unity amongst all, stop bringing up the “differences issue” every single time something is brought up. I believe that normal citizens like me and you, would like to very much see that happen.

Well, as Homeland is going through so much changes and drama, it aint fair if its citizen is not right…? A few major and minor changes happened since I wrote my previous post.
The biggest change was.. yours truly just bought her first ever car!!! Hahahhaa… *shake shake* Well, the car is not here yet.. so you guys can still drive safely on the road for approximately 3 weeks more.. I hope I wont have to wait longer than that. You know la salesman.. they can promise you the moon before you buy the car, and once you did… he’ll be telling you ‘wut moon o? yao meh?? Fatt MOONg yao la!

So, there goes, the biggest purchase I have made thus far. : )

Other minor minor changes all, I guess need not I mention here.. simply cuz I need to mop my room now, so I just don’t have the time.. and I doubt it if you care. : P

Till then… Ciaoz.

12th Election Day 2008.. My First.

Woke up at 7am today.. Surprisingly early for a Saturday.. but.. its most prolly cuz I'm so ussed to waking up at 5am to work everyday..

Today is a big day for Malaysia.. Our 12th Election Day! And not to forget, my first ever voting!
Reached my poling center, SMK Sri Permata @ Seaport (also my beloved highschool :P ) at 9 plus am.. I have to say.. The flow was good. I mean there are people everywhere to guide you where to go, which room to enter.. plus.. the whole process only took me around 5 minutes! It was organized in a god manner. I'm impressed.. i thought i would have to queue up for some time.. but.. it was all good..

Well, first when i reach, i proceed to the counter, pass them my IC, got my polling room number or which saluran i'm supposed to go.. Mine was saluran 9 so i proceed to the second floor of one of the buildings.. cant remember but i think its Block A,

I then proceed into my polling room, pass the lady my IC, she checked it.. then another guy to pass me the form, and then i would have to pass the form to another lady to get some holes punched..

Next, i proceed to one of the nicely covered tables, mark an "X" against the name of candidate of my choice.. hehe, and finally..... cast my vote in the secret ballot. Light orange form for Negeri into one box.. and Dark orange form for Parlimen into another box. There you have it.. a little bit long winded.. but that was the experience.

Well.. actually i don't quite understand why they need 2 people to handle the small forms.. cause they are practically sitting next to each other. so the same person can actually provide the forms and punch holes on them at the same time, no? hehe.. There were like 8 ppl for 1 room (1 to guard the entrance, 1 to check ur ic & read it out loud, 2 for forms, 2 for.. err i dunno.. 1 for the 2
secret ballots, and 1 chief officer to oversee the whole process.) Thats alot of people for me... hehe..

All in all, I'm happy that i experienced my first ever voting experience. It was an experience, but not like those "helluva wow" one... but.. hey, c'mmon ppl, at least exercise your rights, have a say over your country and,.. do your part as Malaysians! For those who have yet to register.. (tsk..tsk.. shame on you..) Faster do it quick! well, its like 5 years form now.. i know.. but who knows you'll forget about it by then right..?

And tonight, and i mean more like throughout the night.. we can expect results to slowly rolling in.. and we shall...... Hear what Malaysians have to say......

What 3rd of March brings you....

You know you're really occupied when you missed reading kenny sia's blog for onw whole week.
I know... crazy right..??

Kennysia.com is like my fav blog to read. Its hilarious, witty, of substance and of cuz the daily dose of sarcasm. I just love it to bits.

Timothy tiah's blog.. well.. the co founder of Nuffnang's is a good read as well...

Ahhh... all is well when there's good blogs to read .. I simply enjoy it .. in fact i <3>

Imagine.. me coming back from home after work at 2pm.. finish up my stuff.. lie on my very comfy bed with my laptop in front of me.. chatting and browsing tru good blogs.. sipping my cold drink.. n eventually fall asleep.. haha.. well.. that is heaven i tell you.. don't get to do it very often.. but i savour the moment every chance i get... <3

Plus, Amanda borrowed me her hard disk the otehr day where i copied all her super nice series.. Little Britain ..omg! The 70's Show.. omgomg!.. all the super cun movies.. Ahh... me is very happy... : )

I think i lead a rather balanced life now.. well.. for one... i sleep and wake up early.. I work very hard at work.. and when i'm home.. i relaxxxxx to the max as well.. i eat rather little now.. cuz i have yet to get use to having my lunch at 9 or 10am.. >.<" so.. i tink im losing some weight.... which is good.. and my emotions are well.. when im upset.. im really upset.. and when im happy.. i do seriously feel happy. Am i making any sense here..? anyways.. what im trying to say is that i feel like im getting a well balanced mixture of both worlds. The good and the bad. Cz... last time.. i have this weird feeling behind the back of my head that when things are too good to be true, they prolly are.. and when things are bad.. they tend to hang around longer in my life...
But now... they r both present.. a mixture.. which i find it rather pleasing.. cuz.. u dont get too happy or too sad. u get what economics call it an equilibrium state .. haha.. if u tink im not making any sense here.. you are probably right. :P

Anyway, where was i? aww god.. my attention span lately is running low... oh.. ya.. what i wanted to say was i bought this pair of cons last 2 weeks that is supposed to make my eyes bigger.. n of cuz to make me look abit prettier cuz i dun fee l pretty when im wearing the specs. haha... its called whimsical brown.. and by no means did it make my eyes bigger! *geram* in fact.. nobody even realised i wore contacts.. obviously the claim that it will make one's eyes bigger is no longer applicable.. its from Freshkon anyway..
BUt ... shrugs... well.. at least i dont have to wear specs that often.. hehe.. But i only bought 2 months supply anyway.. just to try out... So.. by the time 2 months up.. u guessed it right.. im not purchasing it again. N-o.

It 3rd of March.. Countdown to 8 of March shall begin soon i gues..... ehhehe
Have you guys registered? hehe i did!! Did i sound excited? Well, if you think i did.. you think it wrong..
I woulnt say im very excited.. but hey i cant say im not either cuz its yours truly 1st time voting experience k!!
Im not gonna go into long posts about elections stuff and all..cuz.. well.. im not really into politics.
In the end of the day.. it doesnt matter who wins.. so long the one who did will fulfill their promises.. and take care of us peanuts.. Some say vote for the person, not the party.. some say the opposite...
I dunno about you.. but i have already got a pretty good picture on who i'm voting this time around.. But.. i shall not have it mentioned in here. All i can say is.. its not gonna be blue this time around..

So ppl, place your vote this coming 8 MARCH 2008!!! dO YOUR PART YOUNG VOTERS!... hehe..
dont miss the chance to have a say over your country... (part of en mi mundo por mis ojos community service effort..) heck.. wth.

p/s: yours truly is very happy cuz her voting center is sooooo near her home.. hehe.. wanna check? yeah.. you should... http://daftarj.spr.gov.my/daftarbi.asp

Mou tak chui lui yan ar... hehe

Lately i'm beginning to think that my friends are weird. Either that, or i am.

Letme see, okay firstly they start calling me Blonde or Australian girl.. which annoys the gila monster out of me.. cuz for one, i did not dye my hair blonde and secondly, as far as i rmb.. i was born a Malaysian. Either they are right, or i was so blur into not realizing that i got swap during birth to some Australian couple. Makes me wonder..

Eh people.. i'm just working at Australian time, and dealing with Australian people.. but deep down this achy breaky heart lies a true Malaysian ok! My hair is still black and no, i have not lose my Malaysian slang. >.<" I'm still this very Malaysian girl who enjoys her Manglish and the consistent use of lah, wor, ya lo.. why leh.. kinda stuff and i dont plan to gv it away.. So.. if i ever hear 1 more word about Blonde again.. i'm gonna cook you guys alive. Literally. hehe..

In another totally unrelated note, i felt some sense of accomplishment cuz these few days Mr Kent stopped harassing my blog. And i guess it was bcuz of the msg i left him in my chat box hehe.. So i'm relatively proud that i managed to scare him away! *pats self* bangga nyer..

What not to be scared, this crazy fella always have the tendency to leave comments or msgs that are intentionally crafted to drive me crazy! I once received his comment that was so long.. heck, he is like writing his blog.. in my own blog! >.<" beh tahan ooo... And shud u ever wonder who came up with the Blonde thingy.. look no further.. he likes driving me mad. i noe. You take pleasure in the expense of my pain. But as i was saying.. i managed to keep him under control..
Cuz these few days he has been very well behaved. *pats his shoulder* hehe.. Keep it up buddy!
*shows two thumbs up*

Should he ever remain this way, u guys will know that i managed to tame the beast down.
But if he ever makes a comeback..... *curls fist*

p/s: Mr kent, my next possible entry may or may not be about a crush that my very good friend who once happened to be my boss and a student rep had. Whether it comes out or not.. depends pretty much on what he does. *hehe*

not very subtle was i..?

Randomly random..

Everything is about money nowadays.

You want an education, you need money. When you are enrolled and studying, you need money. When you completed it, you need money too.

I just got the convo letter yesterday, and i shocked my eyeballs out when i read that i need to pay rm498! although rm 200 is refundable.. but stil... >.<

I try not to think about it.. How am i going to survive.. payment for convo, booking payment for car (yes, yours truly is thinking of buying a car), family, flowers and teddies for convo (hehe) , omggggg... whoever tell me that after working i'll be financially independent enough to buy stuffs i like .. come here and let me strangle you! Working does not provide you with extra cash. No.

Feel so broke suddenly.. ><

Anyway, as i was saying, convo is near.. so letme tell you guys what is favourable to yours truly. hehe.. alot of nice looking flowers(preferably carnation, sunflower or roses), cute teddies, piggies also can.. gifts would be so nice.. eeh.. oops.. terperasan me.. later that day all i get is some miserable stalk of dried up leaves... so.. yes, i am expecting flowers and teddies .. hahaha... i know.. beh tahan me right..? i cant tahan myself either.. ^^

*blush*

I think im getting older by the minute. Visible wrinkle lines are beginning to show.. I worry too much. Soome stuffs are worth worrying, but some are just plain extras. Cant help it either way. Too personal to have it mentioned here. But my mind is messed. Hopefully it'll get sorted out soon enough. *Toes crossed*

I know its a random jumbled up post today cuz i'm basically just typing whatever that comes to mind. So, pardon me. I would love to continue blogging me but.. the time forbids me to. Its 9.46 already and i'm close to bed. Working 6am-2.30pm has its pros and cons. One thing is although you are working the same amount of hours like others, but going home earlier than them somehow makes you feel as if you are working shorter hours. haha.. psychology i tell you..

But it does have its cons.. Like when you wake up early in the morning and go to work at 5.45am, normal people are basically just waking up from their sweet sweet dreams and some might be happily dreaming away still! And imagine to have your normal cycle all set up once again because now your "lunch" break is at 9am? ehehe.. bt after work you will more time to do your own stuffs.. and when you come as early as i do, you can kiss the traffic jam goodbye! ehehe.. pros and cons la..

Whatever it is, life is full of twists and turns. Sometimes i feel so in control of it , but there are times too that i just lose it.

Regardless of anything, i'm those who keep this "i aint givin up without a fight" mentality in my very own tempurung/kepala otak aku. hehe

Thats all for tonight.. till then, goodnightO!

And rmb the flowers... :P

L.o.v.e is...

You know you're love strucked when..

Everything looks beautiful and crystal clear when you see it through his eyes and yours..

Even when it comes to eating.. your food starts to take or resemble the shape of anything like this..

Your heart might bleed eventually at some point, but it will always be cured by that person. Cleaned, sterilised, bandaged and seal with a kiss. Fast recovery is on the way, usually within a day. (or more.. hehe)

You feel like you can even reach for the stars and that all the stars in the sky shines only at you, for you...

And nevermind the fact that you both are so different in so many ways, but you always take the effort to accomodate one another..

i'm a cat rite, *rrribbbit* oops.. am i?

You also know your love strucked ,when that one person could have the power to turn your world upside down and inside out.. well... something like this picture of an indeed confused cat, thats having some sort of personality disorder.. well.. thats how powerful love is..

PLus, you also know you got it bad when even in the year of The Rat, you start seeing this...

=.=".. ya.. i know.. bad rite?

Regardless you love it, hate it, have it, lost it, never really knew what it is, or hurt by it...

Love is .. always there. It survived many years of evolution, and its basically the foundation to everything. At least to me it is..

One Orlando A. Batissa once said and i quoted, "The greatest weakness of most humans is their hesitancy to tell others how much they love them while they are still alive. " So.. I'm not gonna be most humans.. so..today this post is dedicated to you. For you.

Regardless that sometimes you are really like this..

But most times, you're an angel. So.. you're cool. We're cool. hehe..

So, may it grow and never stop growing for many years to come.

small heart become big big heart.. hehe...

Lovestrucked ,anyone? *grins*

This blog is still functioning... hehe

I havent been updating my blog for sometime now, and i must say i'm ashame. hehe...
Well, the reason being that alot of things have been going on with my life, and i just could not figure out where to start.. hehe..

well, for a start, one major big ass thing that happened in my life happened in late January. A call that would have eventually change my course of career and pretty much my life. The call was from IBM. Upon thinking, contemplating and putting myself tru dilemmas day and night and various other nerve wrecking decison making sessions, yours truly have move on from audit to IBM now. As much as i miss the people i work with previously, i am also very happy here in IBM.

To the team i worked with for the very short one month plus, me miss you guys! Nevermind that the chances of any of you ever reading this is like 0.01%, but.. i miss all of you form the bottom of my heart. You guys have took care of me well, always willing to teach me and you guys made me feel welcomed. On the night of the farewell dinner, i tried to put up a brave front, but deep down i practically much knew that this smight be one of our last dinner together. On my last day, Iris you were so naughty into saying "How come didnt cry wan..?" ... that almost activated my tear system cuz it was already fully accumulated and ready to roll anytime. Serene, one of the nicest girl i've ever met. I wish you get what you wish for and send me goodies from Australia in future. Iris and Serene, you both are like sisters to me. To Seok Wei, my second senior.. i cant help but feel like wanna hug you at times cuz you are so cute! hehe.. YOu always like to tease me, and i never mind it at all .. cuz i like it. but i wont be comin back to clear the review points! hehe.. To my dearest senior Wai Yee. You must have gotten heart attack the first day when you knew your junior is from marketing! hehe.. But, you taught me well. Everything(altho limited) I know about audit, i learned it from you. You were always giving me chances to learn and practice and make mistakes. I will keep in mind all the knowledge you had pass on to me. Ok.. now i do sound kind of emo-ish. Whihc is partly the reason why i did not blog for sometime because i KNOW it will get emo-ish. All i wanna say is, i appreciate you guys. I appreciate that you guys still call and wish me luck on my first day in IBM, asking if everything was alright and can i adjust to the new environment. I felt deeply touched.
I wish i could still be working with all of you, but life took a twist, and i'm now heading to the direction i feel would suit me best.
I wish you guys continued success in your career and may you be happy and healthy always.
Do not forget this blur girl you once met in BDO Binder. : )

Having move on to the new company, changes to where i live now were also inevitable. I am no longer stayin at the rented place in Queens, for i have move back home.. because its nearer and more convenient travelling from home. I 'll start driving to work soon.. so watch out people!! hehe..

So many changes in such a short time. To my roomie and housemates in Queens, i miss you guys. I could recall the night before our first day of work. We were asking each other opinion like hey is this tie ok? or what you think of this skirt? and is this bag ok? reminding each other eh you got bring all your documents ar? I miss that. The sound of my housemate waking us up in the morning is something that i have grown so familiar with that in the morning of my first day of work in IBM, i miss that sound. I miss us chatting at night when everyone had reached home. Chatting and asking each other how your day have been. All these memories, i keep dear to heart. I wish all of you the best of everything and all the strength for you to persevere and succeed in audit life. I will drop by and kacau you guys from time to time.. hehe

Okay.. back to something less emo-ish.. as you can see from the time, its 10 30am.. and i am blogging. well, actually i shouldn't be, but well, lets say i'm using my free time wisely hehe. We are still on training now, but towards the end. Today is the last traiing day. We are suppose to meet up with our mentor later on, so for the time being.. this is what i am doing.

Today is the last day i will be working the normal working time i.e 9-5 pm.. Starting from next week, i will start work at 6am and end at 2.30pm instead. Shopping or movies anyone? hehe..

Today marks my fourth day in IBM and i must say, i like it here very much. The training helps alot as they explain and walk us through IBM history, values, organization chart everthing. We were also briefed and trained on how to utilise our think pad, step by step guidance on how to use relative functions/system, how to operate various office equipments, and many more which is quite impossible to explain all here. It makes you feel well taken care of. Like you know who to call if u need help, which person to look for, whihc floor. They are quite detail and sensitive in terms of taking care and guidin theier new hire. Plus, lunch is so convenient cuz IBM is connected to 1U tru One HOtel so, thats not a prob. But the price of the lunch is.
Its barely a week yet, so im still getting to know the company. I dont know how much will my perception or feelings change towards here after a while, but all i can say for the time being is, i like what i see.. hehe..

Thats all for nw.. my blog is revived!

Have a good day y'all! and Happy Belated Valentine's Day! (mine was goooood, how was yours?)

just some ramblings.

I drank the biggest coconut ever tonight. >.<"

it was so big, its even bigger than my head! heck,its even bigger than kenny sia's. Teehehe...

Felt so full that i almost felt like vomitting. But ididnt , of cuz. And now.. im hungry. >.<' BUt everythings good, cuz.. im expecting some very delicious green curry coming my way... hehe

It feels so relaxing tonight that it suddenly occur to me that i have not made any resolutions for 2008! So here goes... My resolution for 2008 is ....to not make any resolutions!! Hah!

Never will i revert back to that young innocent girl attentively making all her resolutions, promising herself that she will fulfill every of it, but end up forgetting about it one week or so later. hehe. I dont want to succumb myself into futilely making all those resolutions that i know i will never keep. >.<"

So, lets just say that my resolution for 2008 = none.
I'll just do what i would normally do, but double the effort. =)

Talking bout 2008.. many things seem to be happening. How could we not remember the big bang scandal that surprised us early of the year, the kidnap of little Sharlinie (i hope they find her soon and that she's alright and not harmed and the bloody culprit behind this whole thing get caught and face his much deserved punishment) my heart goes to her family members. May they stay strong during this very trying time. And how could we ignore the front page story that seem to grace (or disgrace) our nation. How could it be that our once chief judge could indeed have the possibility of being corrupted? I just could not accept someone from that level could be involved. i find myself losing faith with my own country. ( i dont want to.) How could it be that small childrens could not go to playgrounds due to fear that they might get kidnap and to have cameras installed nearby? It is just so wrong in so many levels. Why is it that we no longer feel safe just taking a short walk to our neighbours' place without having to fear that we will not get rob by some snatch thieves or risk getting some parang welding fella shoving their parangs on our throats? Why is it that cars get stolen so easily? At the end of the day, the question is, How could we not feel safe in our own country?

Enough said. Or should i say i dont know what else to say.

Some things just never change.

My life after uni..

Time passes by very fast when you're in audit.

On one fine sunday night you find yourself utilizing every single minute to relax, just bsc you know tomoro comes another working week, ... then you find yourself waking up in early monday morning (practically dragging your feet)... and the next thing you know.. its already FRIDAY!!!

You will find yourself feeling kinda happy on a friday for no particular reason.. : )
I absolutely am looking forward for weekends, now that i have started working. Time seems very very precious now, and if by any chance i get any time to relax, i will literally jump at the opportunity!

Work is fine and i find myself learning new things every single day. I love the project that im currently charted to and life has been very busy. I love it when i'm occupied because when your working on to something, you wont realise the time. My senior and colleagues have been teaching me alot of stuffs and i really appreciate them doing so. Sometimes, i feel kinda bad because i dont want to bother them too much because they too have work to get done. So, i try to pick up stuffs on my own sometimes.

I have lost touch with accounts for almost 2-3 years .. so.. credit debit stuffs do seems confusing to me at times. But i am learning. I am trying. I am giving myself a chance to work this out, and hopefully the light at the end of the tunnel will come to light very very soon.

As i was saying, work is fine but... travelling to work is NOT.

The normal routine for me is to wake up at 6, wash wash brush brush eat eat and leave the house by 7.20am. After that comes the 12 minutes (depending on speed) walk to the star lrt, 15 minutes ride and another 10 minutes walk to the office. By the time i reach office, i am practically soaked wet. >.<" (not a pleasant sight)

Sigh.. was i too pampered last time? I used to go everywhere and anywhere by car last time.. but now.. i can safely say i am fully utilizing my both legs. No longer can rest. I see myself telling them both legs "C'mon, work it babies!"... But at least the positive side is i might shed some kg-s.. no? Teehehe..

I work till 8pm and by the time i reach home, it is 9 plus. Do some stuff and by 11.. i'll be sleeping like a baby. So on average, i only have 1 and a half hours max per day to do my own stuffs And the whole cycle repeats the day after. I hope i am not scaring anyone, but audit work is really tough, The hours are long, public holidays and weekends does not necessarily mean you can rest at home. But the plus side is, you will learn alot of stuffs. You get to meet many new people. And it is of course very interesting. And the most important thing is..*drumrolls* you might even LOSE WEIGHT!! i dont know if i am imagining it or what,. but i do find myself feeling a tad bit lighter lately. hehe...

I miss doing all the stuffs that i was so used to doing. Im miss watching my tvb dramas, i miss surfing the net, i miss going out for movies, dinner or whatever that comes to mind, i miss having all my time in the world to spare, i miss home, i miss alot of stuffs. I miss my life before working. >.< I miss all you people that i love so much! I miss hanging out at night. I am so not accustomed to sleeping ealry and wake up early routine. Those who know me will surely understand the suffering i am facing everyday .. waking up at 6!!!! *SOBS*

So if you were to ask me what i think of working life? i would say bring me back to uni! Teeheeee..

CONNED!

well.. to put it on a nicer note, i got semi-conned.

why you ask? Its just one of the few things that could go wrong when you decide which movie to watch. I bet it happen to you a least once.. when you go to the cinema.. thought that the particular must be good because they semi-cheat you into believing that the movie is good because they the only part they show you in their sneak previous are the good parts in the movie, and sometimes if you're really unlucky, those little bits of sneak preview parts are the only good parts in that movie!! wth right? i second you. When i think of hese things.. many examples of movies that i felt i got cheated on by their sneak previews are bridge to terrabethia(not sure if i spelled it right) .. that movie is a conner! whats with 28 weeks, hide and seek and countless of others. But i must say, once in a while, you do get a truly good money, worth every cent of your 10 bucks, and if its on student id price.. wala! you got yourself a good deal!!

ok.. where was i? oh ya.. back to the semi conned issue. I dont really know how to put this because i just got back from pavillion and watched this particular movie that got me thinking" what am i doing here"? its not very bad.. but its not very good, nor is it an average movie that you can accept and just watch it cuz you already paid for it. Thats why its semi conned. It is those kind of movie that can make you feeeling blah. As in bleh!. Its not as bad as the movie "My mother is a belly dancer" or "When a stranger calls". The latter is a real cheap flick horror movie wannabe! bleh!

Why am i keep strayin away from the topic tonight..? ok.. we shall go back.

This particular movie that i am talking about is none other than "In the name of the King".

In the name of what you say?? Double sigh-s. When you see the poster, one might be expecting something good you know. Dah-la the name also so glamorous.. the title itself creates a certain sense of curiosity... But.. the higher your expectation... you know the rest. Everything was BAD.
Bad actors, bad production, bad script.. and curiosity? .. none! You dont even have to guess what will happen cuz its as easy to predict as in predicting whether a child will take a candy!.

Enough said.

So.. i got semi-conned into spending my saturday watching In the name of what? ..
Haiz.

At least the company was good. :)

I work out some reasons why people would actually watch this movie. Here goes..
1.) You got conned by the poster/title (just like me..)
2.) You're a movie addict. Any new movie that comes by, you just have to watch it. (Like wise here.. :>)
3.) You bought the wrong tickets. Dont laugh.. It does happen.

And if after reading this, you still decide to watch it..
i conclude that you must be rich. (RM10 ONLY MA..u say) Either that, or you just wanna try out to see how bad it is. Not a very smart move, i would say..

Either way.. dont say i didnt warn you.. In fact, you should thank me in return for saving your RM10 bucks! Heck, i watched it for RM12 bucks today! >.< ??

Instead, do channel your RM10 bucks to movies like Rendition instead.. not bad.. not bad..

Upon writing till now, i just realize how long i have blogged about one single lousy movie that i spend my precious saturday on. Hmm.. either the movie really bothered me or i am just plain very "tak han.." :)

Teehehe..

warning: many many many words ahead.

promises made.. promises kept. : ) i promised to update, and here i am. *smiles ever so proudly*

Just finished some work and... since tomoro is a public holiday.. so i thought.. why not layan abit my blog that have been set aside to the empty dungeon for some time. PLus, some ppl are.. well, for some reasons which i do not know .. seem to be ala ala promoting and complaining that i didnt update and busy wit my skeletons.. so.. wut to do.. but.. i'm really happy that some ppl actually want to read or maybe dun want to but cant help it but read or read to fill time or simply reli do wanna read to noe more about whats happening in my life... hehe.. either way, im
: > !

So.. to save time.. since i no loner have much left since i started work.. here goes the breakdown :

22-25/12/07-Malacca outing which was veli veli nice! too bad, the 6 of each, none brought a cam.. cuz each tot the other will bring it.. -.-" The food was nice la no doubt.. lodging is free courtesy of friend's sista condo ^^.. plus, safari world .. neh.. when we went to see the elephant and have to feed them sugar cane cost RM2 each! The thing is.. no matter how many you feed, they still want more! And when you dont give them more.. plus if you sit on the front row.. hah! Kena air liur nya.... adui... the safari ride was not bad.. altho i find that the humans are more amuse over the animals than vice versa.Guess they got bored of entertaining too many of us too many imes in a day and countless times in a year! PLus, the lions are too thin for my liking, and the tigers, alto well fed and beautifully striped, they are damn lazy man. Didnt see them move a muscle.. hehe! oh ya! Xmas was cool too! Pavillions's decpration is super nice! Whhite Christmas .. jus how i like it ! =)

26/12/07: Yours truly birthday. =) Thank you to those who call/sms/testi/msg/mail/snail mail me. You ppl made me reli reli happy! =) Tq to those who called from overseas .. Felt so warm and surprise bcuz you guys actually do that for me. ^^ TQ for the surpise that i got in Malacca. That was one of the very few times that a surprise actually really work without having fake it. =) You guys are reli good actors. hmm.. got me all fooled up and rolled up under your sleeves.. hmm... ^^ Plus, Had a very good seafood fiesta and movies, outings in pavillion and many more. Plus, i shifted to my new place on this day too!
Indeed a memorable one.

This year is abit weird cuz some ppl who i was almost 100% certain will wish me didnt.. :( but some that i totaly did not expect it did! : ) So for those who didnt.. hmm.. i rmb u!.. so.. if ur under this category, i stil accept belated wishes! hehe.. kidding onlyla.. no.. i mean really! for real.. ^^

31/12/2007- New Year Eve!!
Marks the ending of year 2007. Haiz. The mark of my ending uni life and the beginning of a new page. We reli had a blast la.. thats all i can say. Sakae Sushi was delicious and scrumpous to begin with, plus.. if you are hanging out with 3 very crazily siao funny and daring girls... hmm... expec the unexpected!.The boys cant even meet our energy level! wakaka.. that nite.. hmm.. nvr had i wished strangers that pass by happy new year and smile and sing to them for no particular reasons, alomost kena kiss by some westerners who i think actually meant well, just like a new year greetings, nvr kacau a policeman on duty and talk crap wit him, nvr had i intentionally and purposely enter to teh danger zone in bukit bintang that is filled with ppl armed with snow sprays and ribbons sprays when we dont even have one, nvr had i wear a mask and walk down the streets and blow my whistle and wished everyone happy new year as if i was doing a free promotion.. but witout pay of cuz and nvr had i receive such beautiful flowers. Many first times. Really felt like i started 2008 with a bang! Unlike some health ministers of cuz.. i guess i waslucky to be on the other side. Naughty Naughty boy he is.. ^^ (no pun intended of cuz)

2/1/2008- My first day of work. Felt kinda lost like a stray wet kitten under a heavy pouring rain with no shelter to take cover from.. but.. u noe la.. first day.. so i guess its.. erm.. normal? ^^ .. hopefully..
I think i put the capital b in blur .. at least thats how i felt. ^^ BUt.. after 1 week of work.. am slowly beginning to adjust and get the hang of stuff.... Workload is quite alot. Busy as its the peak period of cuz.. and plus im relatively new in this field. Many things to learn. many many many things to learn. Sometimes i feel like there is no more time for myself. I really really miss college and uni life. I miss eveyrthing. I miss doing things at spur of the moment, but now.. i cant even go for a movie without planning the time properly.. *sobs* some things you just have to let go.. in order to hopefully gain something better. for those who are concern if this marketing girl can survive in an accouting world..? the answer is im surviving. ^^ no doubt i am struggling abit.. and at times i do feel that everyhting is just so wrong and that the thought of quitting did flash tru for a nano second tru my mind.. yes, im stil surviving. I was used to knowing what i was doing, how to do it and evey related matters. Finishing the job was not an issue. the issue was how good can i make it be. i used to have that. But currently, theres so many new things to learn and i really hope that the unfamiliar will be familiar to me soon. For now, i'll just have to have my fingers and toes crossed and double crossed that i will start to strive and not just only survive. ^^

Its getting late. way to late. But since i can go in anytime tomoro (Yes, i have to work tomoro altho its a publice holiday, but its ok wit me.. better! cuz can do more wokr and learn more.. ^^) so.. sleeping at 3 . and waking up at 8.. shud be ok kua..

so.. im signing off now..
dont miss me too much... ^^
will update as and when i can. =)

Happy 2008! May you have a good and blessed one.